Well, hello, this is me now - pale, messy, puffy.

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Not so sure whether it is the PMS or I am really bothered by so many things. My brain is kinda jammed these few days, so many things to figure out, so many things to think about. Sigh.

So, happy 20th birthday my darling! :)

She is my bestie, if you know me, you will know how close I am with her. We have known each other for *counting* 5 years already, she is my high school closest friend. She is a friend, and a family to me. I am blessed to know her.

For the past five years, she really acts as a very very nice friend to me. Every up and down, she would be there to give me support and to listen to me. When we were younger, we used to MSN and share our grandmother stories. Phew, those LONG WINDED stories, really, only we both will listen to each other. And we can share our darkest secrets with each other. We always make ridiculous plans at the back, we always have our missions #likeaboss.

As a friend, she always tolerate with all my nonsense and my "princess" attitude. She accepts me for who I am, she understands me and my attitude very well. Sometimes when I lie to everyone and say "I am fine", I dont know how but she knows I dont mean it, she would then be there to find out what is really wrong with me. Amazing friend she is, right? :)

She is really like a family to me. Our moms know each other so sometimes when her mom is not around, she would come over to my house for lunch, she loves my mom's cooking as much as I do :) She even went to Thailand together with my family last year :D

There was once, she suddenly asked me "Eh, you free ah this afternoon?" I said, "Yeah why?" You know what she replied? She said, "I wanna come to your house and play la, I am bored." LOL, can she be more silly? Hahaha.

She is the one of the only person whom I know would definitely stand up for me when I have any problem. I remember how she rushed to me when I called her and told her I met an accident for the first time in my life. She didnt even have time to say "bye" and the next moment, she was standing in front of me and hugging me already. I was crying like mad that time.

Note to my darling Kok Su Yin,

Happy birthday once again, you are officially 20! :D Thanks for being such a wonderful friend to me for the past five years. Thanks for all the things you have done for me. Thanks for all the memories we have, my high school memories would SUCK without you.

I love you, and no matter where we go, you will always have a place in my heart. Mwah. :)

ps: BY THE WAY, remember you promised me to be my bridesmaid when I get married ah, you dont break your promise I tel you. And do save a quota for me in your wedding. *muka tebal* I die die also wanna be your bridesmaid :P

I love you!

#8 - I played a very extreme outdoor themed park game in Genting. Without mom's permission, haha. Didnt faint. And I salute my bravery. :P

#9 - My hair grew longer this year. And I dyed my hair copper after my exam. First time dyeing my hair a light colour. But I dont think the colour is obvious enough on my hair. =/


#10 - I also dyed my eyebrows to copper. I havent tried it before so it was a new thing for me :P

#11 - For the first time in my life, I became the bridesmaid, for one of my best friend - Rain. :) Congratulations again to Rain and Kevin. :)

#12 - Oh this is a bad thing. I met an accident, I was driving, my own car. I didnt know how I banged it. The total cost to repair the car was reaching 5 digits. =/





#4 - And Bambi! :)) Something that I am addicted and cant live without now :)


#5 - Cousins from Singapore bought me a very beautiful dream catcher. They knew I always wanted one for myself. Pretty isnt it? :)


#6 - My gingerboy family! :DD *excited!* In the last month of 2011, I finally found Gingerboy a sibling! :D So many dreams came true in 2011 isnt it? I had been looking for a sibling for Gingerboy for almost two years already and I found one in Penang, hee! :)


# 7, 8, 9, . . . - Many more little dreams also came true in year 2011. I cant name them all lah :P

Wooo, hi people! :)

I dont know how my cheeks can grow until so puffy and round and fat and humungous.

T__T

Okay, just some random updates. Random until my post title also so random. =/

STPM has officially started. It will last for four weeks, but in these four weeks, I only have papers for six days. Studied so hard, studied so long, all for the almighty six days. BUT, fear not, for I am already half way through it, four more papers to go. Yay yay I can do it! :D

Hows the test? Over all, it was okay only, sigh. Many questions that came out were out of my expectation. Okay I can give you one example, in our Pengajian Am paper 2 karangan, one of the question was "Kepentingan Tidur kepada manusia". Cry onot you tel me when you were greeted with this kind of question? Gosh, so ironic, dah le all because of STPM, us poor students couldnt sleep well, they samo want to give this kind of question in STPM and asked us to tel them why sleeping is so important. QUESTION AH, Y U NO BE LESS IRONIC? T__T

Life has been totally upside down since the exam started too. I have already expected it so I am still fine with it, thank God. During exam days, I will sleep at 1am, wake up at 5am to stuff everything inside my brain until 7am then I will go to school and sit for the test. Afternoon usually I wont have time to sleep, I will revise abit here and there, until dinner. Then after dinner I will take my nap from 9+pm until 11pm, then I will start my night revision. So unhealthy, I know. :( My dark circles are so ugly, and my skin condition is getting worse due to the lack of sleep. SIGH. I want STPM to be over fast!

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But when I am not having exam, my days are good, langsung tak macam tengah exam. I feel like saluting myself also eh, sometimes. Today I watched Twilight Saga - Breaking Dawn part 1. Woohooo! After saying it for like 3295285 times, I finally got to catch the first show in the cinema in town. I liked it. Bersusah payah booked tickets is worth :D Except the fact where the two awesome people who went with me yawned non stop in the cinema. They dont know Twilight, nevermind. :P

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19 days until STPM is over. I will give my best! Taa!

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Akhems.

Ignore my very stupid expression in the photo, I just wanna say this:

:D

All right, to my greatest surprise, I did not cry today, wooh! Tears welled up in my eyes a few times listening to some teacher's final speeches and also when they hugged us and wished us for the last time. But then, I was brave la. :P Did not even shed a single drop of tears. :)

Finally the day has come, we have graduated from high school. So fast. No more school uniform, no more school bells, no more strict and stewpid disciplinary rules that are usually broken in the end, and no more waking up early. :)

But graduating from high school also means no more recess, no more acting silly in school with silly friends, no more teachers guiding us in everything we do, I heard we are not gonna be spoon-fed in universities? Aww, right? Feelings are all mixed up. :'(

Anyhow, it happened. So, yes, we are free from high school. And I graduated with pretty memories and wishes, I am grateful enough. Good bye, St Anthony. Thanks for all the beautiful memories. Good bye, high school friends. Thanks for being there all the time. You all will always be remembered. :)

Akhems. Now, lets get back to reality. 3 more days till STPM and 26 days till freedom. I cant believe I am going to sit for my STPM this soon, gosh. All the best to everyone, and happy graduation. :)

Its gonna be the last schooling week tomorrow. Its gonna be the last week before we go for our big war. I wish I could stop the time. I dont want to grow up. :(

I dont know, I am really very dilemma and torn recently. One part of me wants stpm to be over fast and want school life to end fast, but another part of me wants time to stop, right here, right now. Seriously, this feeling sucks. Cannot stop my tears from falling when I suddenly thought of that just now.

I really will miss school, I will miss schooling life, I will miss everything about school. Honestly, I have never felt this sad to leave school before. Not when I was leaving Convent, not when I was leaving SAA either. But this time, I dont know how many times I have emo-ed because of St Anthony. No one would be sadder than me. No, its not the pms-mood-swing-thing, I am really sad to know what I am about to leave behind.

Dont come and tel me how fun will it be when we officially step OUT from school, I will karate you. I love my life now, I am happy. I dont want anything to change from the way it is. But I have no control over this. Life really will keep moving on, isnt it? Sigh.

All the best to myself, and everyone who is gonna sit for STPM 2011. Best wishes to all.

To be frank, I have actually waited for this assembly for almost one month already. I have been waiting for the last assembly to hear boring speeches from teacher, and, to hear the school band play school rally. :)

7 more schooling days until we graduate. As much as I want to finish my school life faster, I know I am going to miss school. Fact is, I am missing it already. :(

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I am going to miss my sarcastic but very loving class teacher. She has been so nice to us from the very start. I really like her alot. I will always remember the way she said "dot dot dot" whenever she didnt want to answer our questions in class.

I am going to miss the corridor in front of my class. Whenever I am free, thats where I will stand and stare at the field or the basketball court, at the boys who are playing ball and wonder why I couldnt even shoot. Thats also where I stand and stare at the monkey bar and old tar road, daydream about whatever that came into my mind.

I am going to miss canteen food - the rm1.20 teh ais which most of the time I didnt finish drinking and the sunny-side-up eggs which made me drool everytime I saw it. Maybe sometimes I am going to miss the atmosphere in the canteen too.

I am going to miss rainy days in school. Whenever it rained heavily, our school would flood. My classmates and I would fold colourful origami boats and let them float on the water and sulked for a moment when they sank. LOL. I am going to miss it.

I am going to miss that big tree in our school field. There is one black plastic bag STILL hanging on one of the tree branch, I dont know which smart guy did that. That tree always gives me the whoa-our-school-looks-like-those-schools-in-american feeling, you know what I mean?

I am going to miss the school bell also. The sound that I have anticipated every day for recess and school end.

I am going to miss my school uniform and my school shoes. BUT, we dont need to iron school uniform anymore eh.

I am going to miss the not-so-disciplined discipline in the school. I will miss how every time we smuggled handphones to school with the constant fear that we would get caught. Opps, sorry teachers.

I am going to miss everything about school and every moment I spent in Sasti, studying here for only 1.5 years gave me a lot of pretty memories. If I were to list all of them out, the list will reach South Africa and take a turn back to Teluk Intan. :P

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Time really flies. Nothing lasts forever. The only thing that will remain until the end is memory. I am going to remember and treasure all these memories of school with me regardless where I am going and what I am going to do in the coming future. Because when I am 70, I am going to sit on a rocking chair and tel my grandchildren how much I treasure my schooling days. :)

Two more hours till November 2011.

I know I have been saying it since January till October, but I still wanna say this : "NOVEMBER, PLEASE BE NICE TO ME!" :(

I have said the same thing every beginning of every month for the past ten friggin months but they sucked badly in the end somehow. So, November, dont disappoint me, pretty please? I need to do well in November, I am going for world war 3. Thank you in advanced, dearest November.

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Since I am already so emo tonight, let me just rant a little bit here before I go and grab my coffee and start my revision.

Blame PMS, I have been thinking too much these few days. Yes, AGAIN. Very typical me. I even have been having bad dreams at night. I dreamed about random things, people, and even a scary-looking fish. Crazy.

And there is this specific thought running about in my mind very often recently. People, have you ever thought that you are not good enough? This thought has been haunting me for quite a while already. It is bothering me.

Its like, you have tried and you are still trying your best in something that you are doing, but at the same time you keep feeling that you are not trying hard enough. The harder you try, the more you think it is STILL not good enough. I have this feeling. It sucks.

I feel so silly for saying this loud. Maybe it is because of the coming-soon exam, I am having this fear whenever I see my classmates study. Especially itu chtan and mingqiu lah. ( Please dont kill me if you guys are reading this :P ) They practically study like every second in the class! You have to see the expressions on their faces to understand how scary they are. They can write non stop and study non stop! Why they have such long attention span? =/

Eff this shit. STPM, Y U NO BE OVER FASTER? Dang! :((

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Now.. Before the clock strikes 12, Happy Halloween 2011, darling readers. :) Till I come back again

I am and SHOULD BE studying right now. Fact is, I am half way studying and then I suddenly have the mood to blog. My books are still lying beside me. Just a very short post for the sake of my sudden inspiration. :P

I have another thing to say about myself, I just noticed it. I have very very short attention span when it comes to study. Okay, I mean, I do study, I TRIED to concentrate everytime I study. But after the maximum period of 15 mins, I will start doing other thing. Eg, play with my hair, find my puppy, replay song play list, or, go in front of mirror. .___.

My attention span is only that short. How I hate myself. :( This only happens when I am studying. When I am doing other thing, lets say when Im doing my art/craft work, I can do the same thing for hours without getting bored. Grrreeeaat no?

I think..

I "cannot blame myself for this also" lah. :P Who can study Business 1 Chapter 3 non stop for more than 15 minutes you tel me? It is full of words and so boring and so many details to remember in every single line, hmph.

But if there is this person, please call him/her to come in front and fight with me, i mean, be my sifu, hahaha, I really need to salute him/her. :P

Okay, enough of crap. I will get back to my study. NOW. I will. :P

18th October 2011.

Exactly 34 more days to STPM. Time, will you turn back or slow down to give me more time to study?

Perhaps its the stress, perhaps its my hormones, perhaps its mom's nagging, perhaps I finally see the importance of study. Recently I have the mood and the ouhhm to do my revision. Yay, I am heroine! This started for nearly two weeks already. And I am glad I am still carrying it out very fine, minus the yawning and a little bit of laziness here and there la of course. :P

Have been sleeping late to get all the syllabus covered. BOOKS AH BOOKS, Y U NO BE THINNER? And also BUSINESS AH BUSINESS, Y U NO BE LESS COMPLICATING? Must mention here this : My Business paper 1, the very almighty paper, Chapter 3, it has 194 pages, all-words-no-picture kind of pages. Then it has 4 main topics under it. Under the 4 topics, there are more than 30 sub topics, and under each subtopic, it will AT LEAST have 2-8 sub-subtopics.

And, that chapter, is a compulsory chapter. You read or you die.

Phew, tel me, aint this great? Aint this just the best thing ever? T_T

I dont know how am I going to get through this critical period until stpm is over. Keep your fingers crossed for me. :(

And their black glutinous rice. Its not bad too. :)

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After breakfast, we started to head to Songkhla. It took us around 45 minutes ride. On the way there, we stopped by this sort-of-by-the-road-side temple to snap photo. I am sorry but I really dont know the names of most places we visited, i only know Lee Garden Shopping Mall. Hahaa!

Okay back to this temple, there is a BIG statue there. The temple is new, two years back when we passed by there, it was still under renovation.The huge open air reclining Buddha. It is really very big.

The other side of the temple. More and more statues.


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And we finally reached Samila beach in Songkhla. :D Nothing changed since the last time I went. Crowded and we bumped into a few Teluk intan-ian there. Is the world THAT SMALL? Mwahhaa.

Whole street of stalls selling different type of souvenirs. Cheap and nice. So regret I didnt buy more. The souvenirs there is WAY CHEAPER than those in Hat Yai.


Mom picking wind chime. I bought a few too, and I have one hanging out side of my room door right now, hee. But I always bang into it and it is kinda broken already. :( I have big head. :((

This is a must-try when you are in Songkhla. This coconut-flavored ice cream is served with coconut flesh, peanuts, sweet potato, bread and a few more things which I have forgotten. Its yummy, I have not seen it in anywhere besides Songkhla. If I am not mistaken, it costs 45 baht per bowl. Worth the price, really. :)

We shared. I ate only two scoops before I passed it back to daddy. I was too busy snapping photo, walking around and enjoying the view of the beach. Do you know how much I love beach? :)

Sister and the mermaid statue. We waited for more than 15 minutes just to get a few shot with this mermaid. It was when the sun was right in the middle of the sky, thats how I got two tones darker lohh. T__T

More shots. I love this most. WE love this most, in fact. :)

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Purposely stopped by this hotel just to have our lunch there. Another group photo taken. :D


After lunch, finally the time I have waited for SHOOO long arrived. Phew, finally we got to go Lee Garden Plaza! YAYYYY!

We walked to the plaza cause it is very near to our hotel.

Grabbing as many as I can in the shortest time. :P This is the only photo I got because we were too busy shopping. No time to snap picture. And believe me, you would not like to see how I look when I transformed into Shopaholic. Mwahaha!

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We visited Restaurant Log Terrance before we went for dinner. A very beautiful restaurant indeed. It is really in a cave. LOL.



After dinner, we went to a night market. It was the biggest night market that I have visited. Its even bigger than the one in Cheras. There were more than 200 stalls there. Clothes, food, shoes, you just name it. Mr Frankie brought us there because he told us that it is the place where we can find the cheapest thing in Hat Yai. Most of the local people in Hat Yai would go there to buy their things. But I didnt really like it because again, it was too crowded, couldnt even breathe properly there.



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Dad has been telling me about the milk tea in Hat Yai before we went there. He knows I love tea. So, we left the night market early to go back to Lee Garden plaza. The milk tea stall is just right in front of the plaza.

This is the stall.

And you look at the crowd. @__@

And I waited for around 30 minutes to get this! *evil laugh !But i didnt eat la, its spicy. Suyin
AND THIS! *evil laugh x2! It is YUMMY! It is very different with the tea we can get in Malaysia. And I miss the taste. :(

You see how much I ate during the trip. I gained one kg after we came back. Sobs. Okay, basically thats all we did on day 2 and I will continue with Day 3 post again soon. Till then. :)