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2012-01-10T21:30:00.006+08:00

Well, hello, this is me now - pale, messy, puffy.

Not so sure whether it is the PMS or I am really bothered by so many things. My brain is kinda jammed these few days, so many things to figure out, so many things to think about. Sigh.

They always said I am a person who always love to over-think things. Haha but I think they are most right, simply because I am not those aiya-let-whatever-comes-come-person, I cant stand it when I dont know what is going it happen. And pooof, this leads me into thinking and worrying about things that even I am not sure of. I know surely you are gonna say we cannot plan whatever that is coming, I know, I agree, but dont you think that only will make us to not know how to handle things in a better way?

As we are growing older, more and more things come to our mind for us to figure out and to decide. Just yesterday, the registration for IPTA finally opened and thats one of the thing that is bothering me most right now. So many procedures and so many problems! Questions after questions my brain is bombed with. Mostly all are the same questions where I couldnt get the answer. I wanna cry out loud dang. Pathetic much eh? Yada yada I know. :(

But who can you really open up to? Lets not deny the fact that most of them are just curious about our problems, they dont really care. Hey, I realised I am getting more and more pessimistic lately. No good, no good.

But whatever is it, I am just gonna pray hard and hope for the best. Darent to put my hopes too high because expectations lead to disappointments and thats the last thing I want to feel again.

Happy 20th, my dearest bestie!

2012-01-08T15:35:00.006+08:00

8th January 2012, she turned 20. No longer a teenager, she officially stepped into the second decade of her life. Big girl already, old already, akhems dont deny this. :P

So, happy 20th birthday my darling! :)

I love her #1.

She is my bestie, if you know me, you will know how close I am with her. We have known each other for *counting* 5 years already, she is my high school closest friend. She is a friend, and a family to me. I am blessed to know her.

I love her #2.

For the past five years, she really acts as a very very nice friend to me. Every up and down, she would be there to give me support and to listen to me. When we were younger, we used to MSN and share our grandmother stories. Phew, those LONG WINDED stories, really, only we both will listen to each other. And we can share our darkest secrets with each other. We always make ridiculous plans at the back, we always have our missions #likeaboss.

I love her #3.

As a friend, she always tolerate with all my nonsense and my "princess" attitude. She accepts me for who I am, she understands me and my attitude very well. Sometimes when I lie to everyone and say "I am fine", I dont know how but she knows I dont mean it, she would then be there to find out what is really wrong with me. Amazing friend she is, right? :)

I love her #4.

She is really like a family to me. Our moms know each other so sometimes when her mom is not around, she would come over to my house for lunch, she loves my mom's cooking as much as I do :) She even went to Thailand together with my family last year :D

There was once, she suddenly asked me "Eh, you free ah this afternoon?" I said, "Yeah why?" You know what she replied? She said, "I wanna come to your house and play la, I am bored." LOL, can she be more silly? Hahaha.

I love her #5.

She is the one of the only person whom I know would definitely stand up for me when I have any problem. I remember how she rushed to me when I called her and told her I met an accident for the first time in my life. She didnt even have time to say "bye" and the next moment, she was standing in front of me and hugging me already. I was crying like mad that time.

Note to my darling Kok Su Yin,

Happy birthday once again, you are officially 20! :D Thanks for being such a wonderful friend to me for the past five years. Thanks for all the things you have done for me. Thanks for all the memories we have, my high school memories would SUCK without you.

I love you, and no matter where we go, you will always have a place in my heart. Mwah. :)

ps: BY THE WAY, remember you promised me to be my bridesmaid when I get married ah, you dont break your promise I tel you. And do save a quota for me in your wedding. *muka tebal* I die die also wanna be your bridesmaid :P

I love you!

The last post in 2011

2011-12-31T01:26:00.004+08:00

ALOHA and HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE, people! :D

First of all, I am officially free from STPM, yay! (Y)(Y)
Lol, die. STPM over for almost half a month only I have the time to blog about it. Boo myself infinity times :P So this time, I will do a long long post, sekali gus update all the big things that happened in 2011. *Efficiency tahap antarabangsa* :P This post is gonna be long and picture-ful by the way. One Two Go!

MY 2011 :DD
Part1 - The Happenings.

#1 - I graduated, officially from high school! #likeaboss, hahaha. No more school uniform for good! BIG BIG YES! :D

#2 - I sat for STPM. And I fought and survied till the end of the war. :)
The last photo of me wearing school uniform on the last day of STPM :D My face and my eye bags are superb :P

#3 - After almost 9 months of hard work, I managed to get my Art Project done for my Arts Subject in STPM. Sweat, effort, and tears. That process was long and tough :( But anyway, thats my art work - a microwave model, and the black thick book on the table is my folio. 109 pages.

#4 - Aged 19. I became the mascot of my sports day for the last time. Oh I was a bee for Yellow House. :P We were the champion. How memorable for my last year of schooling. :)

#5 - My schoolmates and I joined a very memorable competition called TiEC - Teens in Environment Cooperation, organized by UTP. We were the big winner of that day. :)

#6 - I went for a trip with my bestee without my parents. I called it The Solo Trip. Dont laugh, that was the first time I took public transport for a trip without supervision. :D

#7 - I didnt skip but I participated in the "Larian 1 Murid 1 Sukan" in my school and I won the 10th place. Wooohs, I still cant believe it. AMAZING OKAY? I am never an athlete, I cant do sports. I dont know how I won this but I did. Everyone dropped jaws :P

#8 - I played a very extreme outdoor themed park game in Genting. Without mom's permission, haha. Didnt faint. And I salute my bravery. :P

#9 - My hair grew longer this year. And I dyed my hair copper after my exam. First time dyeing my hair a light colour. But I dont think the colour is obvious enough on my hair. =/

#10 - I also dyed my eyebrows to copper. I havent tried it before so it was a new thing for me :P

#11 - For the first time in my life, I became the bridesmaid, for one of my best friend - Rain. :) Congratulations again to Rain and Kevin. :)

#12 - Oh this is a bad thing. I met an accident, I was driving, my own car. I didnt know how I banged it. The total cost to repair the car was reaching 5 digits. =/

Part 2 - The dream-come-true.

#1 - I finally got my DSLR! Big big thanks to daddy. :) I dont have to buy it with my own money already now. :P

#2 - Fell in love with a toy robot and I bought it after hesitating for berry long. Meet my Xanbo :)

#3 - Got myself a pink Guess watch using my own saving + the money from TiEC competition :D It had been my dream for a while already and I finally owned it. :D

#4 - And Bambi! :)) Something that I am addicted and cant live without now :)

#5 - Cousins from Singapore bought me a very beautiful dream catcher. They knew I always wanted one for myself. Pretty isnt it? :)

#6 - My gingerboy family! :DD *excited!* In the last month of 2011, I finally found Gingerboy a sibling! :D So many dreams came true in 2011 isnt it? I had been looking for a sibling for Gingerboy for almost two years already and I found one in Penang, hee! :)

# 7, 8, 9, . . . - Many more little dreams also came true in year 2011. I cant name them all lah :P

And that pretty much summed up my 2011. :) Over all, this year is great. Although at the beginning of the year, I was terribly hurt for some reasons but life got better after that. I am happy, and I am grateful.

They always say, count your blessings and not your troubles, right? I counted, I am thankful for everything and everyone who made my 2011 a wonderful year.

And Mr 2012, you please be GREAT too okay? I am looking forward to 2012. Much love and Happy 2012, everyone! ♥♥♥

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My war.

2011-11-25T00:36:00.004+08:00

Wooo, hi people! :)

I dont know how my cheeks can grow until so puffy and round and fat and humungous.

T__T

Okay, just some random updates. Random until my post title also so random. =/

STPM has officially started. It will last for four weeks, but in these four weeks, I only have papers for six days. Studied so hard, studied so long, all for the almighty six days. BUT, fear not, for I am already half way through it, four more papers to go. Yay yay I can do it! :D

Hows the test? Over all, it was okay only, sigh. Many questions that came out were out of my expectation. Okay I can give you one example, in our Pengajian Am paper 2 karangan, one of the question was "Kepentingan Tidur kepada manusia". Cry onot you tel me when you were greeted with this kind of question? Gosh, so ironic, dah le all because of STPM, us poor students couldnt sleep well, they samo want to give this kind of question in STPM and asked us to tel them why sleeping is so important. QUESTION AH, Y U NO BE LESS IRONIC? T__T

Life has been totally upside down since the exam started too. I have already expected it so I am still fine with it, thank God. During exam days, I will sleep at 1am, wake up at 5am to stuff everything inside my brain until 7am then I will go to school and sit for the test. Afternoon usually I wont have time to sleep, I will revise abit here and there, until dinner. Then after dinner I will take my nap from 9+pm until 11pm, then I will start my night revision. So unhealthy, I know. :( My dark circles are so ugly, and my skin condition is getting worse due to the lack of sleep. SIGH. I want STPM to be over fast!

But when I am not having exam, my days are good, ~~langsung tak macam tengah exam~~. I feel like saluting myself also eh, sometimes. Today I watched Twilight Saga - Breaking Dawn part 1. Woohooo! After saying it for like 3295285 times, I finally got to catch the first show in the cinema in town. I liked it. Bersusah payah booked tickets is worth :D Except the fact where the two awesome people who went with me yawned non stop in the cinema. They dont know Twilight, nevermind. :P

19 days until STPM is over. I will give my best! Taa!

Graduated

2011-11-18T23:34:00.003+08:00

Xr Chloe's FB status :

‎18th November 2011 - officially the last day of high school.

No matter where am I heading to after this, when I am old, I am going to sit on a rocking chair and tel my grandchildren how proud I am to, once be an Anthonian. :)

Akhems.

Ignore my very stupid expression in the photo, I just wanna say this:

"I HAVE OFFICIALLY GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL!"

All right, to my greatest surprise, I did not cry today, wooh! Tears welled up in my eyes a few times listening to some teacher's final speeches and also when they hugged us and wished us for the last time. But then, I was brave la. :P Did not even shed a single drop of tears. :)

Finally the day has come, we have graduated from high school. So fast. No more school uniform, no more school bells, no more strict and stewpid disciplinary rules ~~that are usually broken in the end~~, and no more waking up early. :)

But graduating from high school also means no more recess, no more acting silly in school with silly friends, no more teachers guiding us in everything we do, I heard we are not gonna be spoon-fed in universities? Aww, right? Feelings are all mixed up. :'(

Anyhow, it happened. So, yes, we are free from high school. And I graduated with pretty memories and wishes, I am grateful enough. Good bye, St Anthony. Thanks for all the beautiful memories. Good bye, high school friends. Thanks for being there all the time. You all will always be remembered. :)

Akhems. Now, lets get back to reality. 3 more days till STPM and 26 days till freedom. I cant believe I am going to sit for my STPM this soon, gosh. All the best to everyone, and happy graduation. :)

I wish time would stop.

2011-11-13T23:18:00.005+08:00

Its just another emo post. :(

Its gonna be the last schooling week tomorrow. Its gonna be the last week before we go for our big war. I wish I could stop the time. ~~I dont want to grow up.~~ :(

I dont know, I am really very dilemma and torn recently. One part of me wants stpm to be over fast and want school life to end fast, but another part of me wants time to stop, right here, right now. Seriously, this feeling sucks. Cannot stop my tears from falling when I suddenly thought of that just now.

I really will miss school, I will miss schooling life, I will miss everything about school. Honestly, I have never felt this sad to leave school before. Not when I was leaving Convent, not when I was leaving SAA either. But this time, I dont know how many times I have emo-ed because of St Anthony. No one would be sadder than me. No, its not the pms-mood-swing-thing, I am really sad to know what I am about to leave behind.

Dont come and tel me how fun will it be when we officially step OUT from school, I will karate you. I love my life now, I am happy. I dont want anything to change from the way it is. But I have no control over this. Life really will keep moving on, isnt it? Sigh.

All the best to myself, and everyone who is gonna sit for STPM 2011. Best wishes to all.

I will miss.

2011-11-09T20:28:00.001+08:00

9th November marks the last school assembly in my life as a school student. No more assembly from today onwards.

To be frank, I have actually waited for this assembly for almost one month already. I have been waiting for the last assembly to hear ~~boring~~ speeches from teacher, and, to hear the school band play school rally. :)

7 more schooling days until we graduate. As much as I want to finish my school life faster, I know I am going to miss school. Fact is, I am missing it already. :(

I am going to miss my sarcastic but very loving class teacher. She has been so nice to us from the very start. I really like her alot. I will always remember the way she said "dot dot dot" whenever she didnt want to answer our questions in class.

I am going to miss the corridor in front of my class. Whenever I am free, thats where I will stand and stare at the field or the basketball court, at the boys who are playing ball and wonder why I couldnt even shoot. Thats also where I stand and stare at the monkey bar and old tar road, daydream about whatever that came into my mind.

I am going to miss canteen food - the rm1.20 teh ais which most of the time I didnt finish drinking and the sunny-side-up eggs which made me drool everytime I saw it. Maybe sometimes I am going to miss the atmosphere in the canteen too.

I am going to miss rainy days in school. Whenever it rained heavily, our school would flood. My classmates and I would fold colourful origami boats and let them float on the water and sulked for a moment when they sank. LOL. I am going to miss it.

I am going to miss that big tree in our school field. There is one black plastic bag STILL hanging on one of the tree branch, I dont know which smart guy did that. That tree always gives me the whoa-our-school-looks-like-those-schools-in-american feeling, you know what I mean?

I am going to miss the school bell also. The sound that I have anticipated every day for recess and school end.

I am going to miss my school uniform and my school shoes. BUT, we dont need to iron school uniform anymore eh.

I am going to miss the not-so-disciplined discipline in the school. I will miss how every time we smuggled handphones to school with the constant fear that we would get caught. Opps, sorry teachers.

I am going to miss all of my friends. :(

I am going to miss everything about school and every moment I spent in Sasti, studying here for only 1.5 years gave me a lot of pretty memories. If I were to list all of them out, the list will reach South Africa and take a turn back to Teluk Intan. :P

Time really flies. Nothing lasts forever. The only thing that will remain until the end is memory. I am going to remember and treasure all these memories of school with me regardless where I am going and what I am going to do in the coming future. Because when I am 70, I am going to sit on a rocking chair and tel my grandchildren how much I treasure my schooling days. :)

November.

2011-10-31T21:58:00.011+08:00

Two more hours till November 2011.

I know I have been saying it since January till October, but I still wanna say this : "NOVEMBER, PLEASE BE NICE TO ME!" :(

I have said the same thing every beginning of every month for the past ten friggin months but they sucked badly in the end somehow. So, November, dont disappoint me, pretty please? I need to do well in November, I am going for world war 3. Thank you in advanced, dearest November.

Since I am already so emo tonight, let me just rant a little bit here before I go and grab my coffee and start my revision.

Blame PMS, I have been thinking too much these few days. Yes, AGAIN. Very typical me. I even have been having bad dreams at night. I dreamed about random things, people, and even a scary-looking fish. Crazy.

And there is this specific thought running about in my mind very often recently. People, have you ever thought that you are not good enough? This thought has been haunting me for quite a while already. It is bothering me.

Its like, you have tried and you are still trying your best in something that you are doing, but at the same time you keep feeling that you are not trying hard enough. The harder you try, the more you think it is STILL not good enough. I have this feeling. It sucks.

I feel so silly for saying this loud. Maybe it is because of the coming-soon exam, I am having this fear whenever I see my classmates study. Especially itu chtan and mingqiu lah. ( Please dont kill me if you guys are reading this :P ) They practically study like every second in the class! You have to see the expressions on their faces to understand how scary they are. They can write non stop and study non stop! Why they have such long attention span? =/

After I see them studying non stop, I will start feeling scared that I have not been studying enough. My mind keeps telling me "Eh you see people are studying whole day and you only study at night, die lah you this time. You confirm GG already." Dang you, brain. Y U NO support me?

I am not trying to beat them or anything, honestly. In fact, I really salute their determination and amazed by their concentration. Okay, in a positive aspect, it is a good thing because at least it motivates me to study harder. But then, comparing ourselves to be better, or to be as good as people, or to beat other people is way too silly and it is just adding pressure to my life. Though I know I am lacking of pressure. =/

Off topic: The STPM timetable is treating me quite good compared to many of my friends, and that, makes me feel less-pressure. NOT GOOD!

Conclusion is, I am torn. I know I need pressure but I am afraid to face/handle them. I want STPM to be come and go faster but I am afraid I cant do well. I study but I am scared I dont study enough. I am tired but I dont want to rest.

Eff this shit. STPM, Y U NO BE OVER FASTER? Dang! :((

Now.. Before the clock strikes 12, Happy Halloween 2011, darling readers. :) Till I come back again

Attention span.

2011-10-19T01:52:00.004+08:00

1 52am, Wednesday, 19.10.2011.

I am and SHOULD BE studying right now. Fact is, I am half way studying and then I suddenly have the mood to blog. My books are still lying beside me. Just a very short post for the sake of my sudden inspiration. :P

I have another thing to say about myself, I just noticed it. I have very very short attention span when it comes to study. Okay, I mean, I do study, I TRIED to concentrate everytime I study. But after the maximum period of 15 mins, I will start doing other thing. Eg, play with my hair, find my puppy, replay song play list, or, go in front of mirror. .___.

My attention span is only that short. How I hate myself. :( This only happens when I am studying. When I am doing other thing, lets say when Im doing my art/craft work, I can do the same thing for hours without getting bored. Grrreeeaat no?

I think..

I "cannot blame myself for this also" lah. :P Who can study Business 1 Chapter 3 non stop for more than 15 minutes you tel me? It is full of words and so boring and so many details to remember in every single line, hmph.

But if there is this person, please call him/her to come in front and ~~fight with me~~, i mean, be my sifu, hahaha, I really need to salute him/her. :P

Okay, enough of crap. I will get back to my study. NOW. I will. :P

Y U NO study hard?

2011-10-18T11:32:00.000+08:00

18th October 2011.

Exactly 34 more days to STPM. Time, will you turn back or slow down to give me more time to study?

Perhaps its the stress, perhaps its my hormones, perhaps its mom's nagging, perhaps I ~~finally see the importance of study~~. Recently I have the mood and the ouhhm to do my revision. Yay, I am heroine! This started for nearly two weeks already. And I am glad I am still carrying it out very fine, minus the yawning and a little bit of laziness here and there la of course. :P

Have been sleeping late to get all the syllabus covered. BOOKS AH BOOKS, Y U NO BE THINNER? And also BUSINESS AH BUSINESS, Y U NO BE LESS COMPLICATING? Must mention here this : My Business paper 1, the very almighty paper, Chapter 3, it has 194 pages, all-words-no-picture kind of pages. Then it has 4 main topics under it. Under the 4 topics, there are more than 30 sub topics, and under each subtopic, it will AT LEAST have 2-8 sub-subtopics.

And, that chapter, is a compulsory chapter. You read or you die.

Phew, tel me, aint this great? Aint this just the best thing ever? T_T

I dont know how am I going to get through this critical period until stpm is over. Keep your fingers crossed for me. :(

Sawadeeka, Thailand! (part 2)

2011-10-12T20:37:00.009+08:00

Day 2 - morning :

On the second day morning, we were supposed to wake up and get ready before 9.00am so that we could have more time to visit more places. And i just got my Bambi before we went to Thailand. So, new gadget, you can imagine how excited I was right? On the first night in Thailand before we slept, I beria-ia volunteered to use my Bambi's alarm clock to wake us up the second day. But I didnt know what on Earth happen, I was too smart I think, I didnt know how, the alarm just didnt ring on that morning. And we three woke up late and the two of them kept blaming me throughout the whole trip. Horrible. :P

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Wake up la lazy bum sister. You see i told you she grabbed the whole blanket. Sigh.

Say Good morning to Hat Yai! :D This is the view from our hotel.
The street was still quiet. But Tuk tuk looked cute there, isnt it? :)

We had our breakfast in a chinese restaurant at the back of our hotel. This is their "Wan Tan Mee". Suyin and sisi kept asking why it was not black. Maybe the aunty forgot to put soy sauce?

But their "Yao Char Kway" is tooooo cute! Unlike ours, theirs are short and cute! Very tiny and cute! <3

And their black glutinous rice. Its not bad too. :)

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After breakfast, we started to head to Songkhla. It took us around 45 minutes ride. On the way there, we stopped by this sort-of-by-the-road-side temple to snap photo. I am sorry but I really dont know the names of most places we visited, i only know Lee Garden Shopping Mall. Hahaa!

Okay back to this temple, there is a BIG statue there. The temple is new, two years back when we passed by there, it was still under renovation.The huge open air reclining Buddha. It is really very big.

The other side of the temple. More and more statues.

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And we finally reached Samila beach in Songkhla. :D Nothing changed since the last time I went. Crowded and we bumped into a few Teluk intan-ian there. Is the world THAT SMALL? Mwahhaa.

Whole street of stalls selling different type of souvenirs. Cheap and nice. So regret I didnt buy more. The souvenirs there is WAY CHEAPER than those in Hat Yai.

Mom picking wind chime. I bought a few too, and I have one hanging out side of my room door right now, hee. But I always bang into it and it is kinda broken already. :( I have big head. :((

This is a must-try when you are in Songkhla. This coconut-flavored ice cream is served with coconut flesh, peanuts, sweet potato, bread and a few more things which I have forgotten. Its yummy, I have not seen it in anywhere besides Songkhla. If I am not mistaken, it costs 45 baht per bowl. Worth the price, really. :)

We shared. I ate only two scoops before I passed it back to daddy. I was too busy snapping photo, walking around and enjoying the view of the beach. Do you know how much I love beach? :)

Sister and the mermaid statue. We waited for more than 15 minutes just to get a few shot with this mermaid. It was when the sun was right in the middle of the sky, thats how I got two tones darker lohh. T__T

More shots. I love this most. WE love this most, in fact. :)

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Day 2 - afternoon :

Purposely stopped by this hotel just to have our lunch there. Another group photo taken. :D

After lunch, finally the time I have waited for SHOOO long arrived. Phew, finally we got to go Lee Garden Plaza! YAYYYY!

We walked to the plaza cause it is very near to our hotel.

Grabbing as many as I can in the shortest time. :P This is the only photo I got because we were too busy shopping. No time to snap picture. And believe me, you would not like to see how I look when I transformed into Shopaholic. Mwahaha!

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Day 2 - Evening :

We visited Restaurant Log Terrance before we went for dinner. A very beautiful restaurant indeed. It is really in a cave. LOL.

After dinner, we went to a night market. It was the biggest night market that I have visited. Its even bigger than the one in Cheras. There were more than 200 stalls there. Clothes, food, shoes, you just name it. Mr Frankie brought us there because he told us that it is the place where we can find the cheapest thing in Hat Yai. Most of the local people in Hat Yai would go there to buy their things. But I didnt really like it because again, it was too crowded, couldnt even breathe properly there.

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Day 2 - Night :

Dad has been telling me about the milk tea in Hat Yai before we went there. He knows I love tea. So, we left the night market early to go back to Lee Garden plaza. The milk tea stall is just right in front of the plaza.

This is the stall.

And you look at the crowd. @__@

And I waited for around 30 minutes to get this! *evil laugh !But i didnt eat la, its spicy. Suyin
AND THIS! *evil laugh x2! It is YUMMY! It is very different with the tea we can get in Malaysia. And I miss the taste. :(

You see how much I ate during the trip. I gained one kg after we came back. Sobs. Okay, basically thats all we did on day 2 and I will continue with Day 3 post again soon. Till then. :)

Sawadeeka, Thailand! :D

2011-10-09T18:17:00.016+08:00

On the 16th September 2011, my family went to Thailand again. Yes, on Malaysia Day, not very patriotic I know. :P The last time we visited Thai was two years back. This time was a little special because except for my own family members (Daddy, Mami, Me, Sisi and Bro) three more special guests tagged along: Grandma, Suyin (YES, she went with me!) and my mom's colleague (Siew Li jie jie).

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Suyin came and slept over in my place on the 15th. And on 16th, 4 30am in the morning, our tour guide aka our driver reached the gate of my house and tadah there we started our trip, SAWADEEKA, THAILAND! :D
Journey from Teluk Intan to Thailand, to be exact, Hat Yai took us 8 hours. 6 hours from Teluk Intan to Thailand border, and then stucked in the custom for roughly an hour, then another hour to reach Hat Yai. But the whole journey was filled with our VERY LOUD laughter and all the stupid jokes and stupid incidents. Well thats what happened when bestie is around. :P

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First day lunch:

A famous chicken rice shop before we reached Hat Yai. Its really yummy I kid you not! But the price was a little high compared to our chicken rice.

And this was our dessert after lunch. Our very nice and friendly and responsible (okay we really liked him) tour guide recommended this, I dont know what is it called. We bought it from a stall by the road side, it was only 50 baht. The thread-like thing is made from sugar, and we had to wrap them inside of popia skin to eat them. I didnt eat much because it was a little too sweet for me. But they enjoyed it. :)

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We didnt check in to our hotel after we reached Hat Yai. Our tour guide ( Mr Frankie) said "Why waste time in hotel when you can save your time to go around Hat Yai?" Haha.
So, the first place we visited was a temple. There is this monk in this temple, she is dead but her hair and nails are still growing. Thats what our tour guide told us. Okay, so no harm to go and have a look. :)

Very temple-ish building. My main motive of going to Thai was to SHOP and RELAX. Since I was not interested in temples, so I just walked around and snapped photos. :P

Ahh, this is the monk. Didnt go really close to look at her nails because it was too crowded.

Mom and cute grandma. :D Let me go off topic for a little while, cant help to mention this when I look at these two photos. Just in case anyone is interested to know why my siblings are tall but I am short, here is the answer. My mom is 152cm and my grandma is not more than 145cm. And I have inherited their genes, wohoo! VERY EPIC.

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Okay back to Hat Yai. After visiting the temple, we were sweating already. And suyin was having stomach pain and we couldnt find a CLEAN toilet. So we requested Mr Frankie to bring us back to hotel first.

This is our room. We didnt book a 5 stars hotel because my family are not very particular about the hotel, just as long as it is clean and comfortable. Two years back, we stayed in the same place and I liked it here very much. So this time, we booked the same hotel. And me, Suyin and Sisi refused to sleep in different room so the silly us got only one room for ourself. *Mom shakes head.

This is our bed. Big enough for three person to sleep together. The only thing is MY SIS GRABBED MOST OF THE BLANKET and I hate her. T__T

Toilet. Small but clean.

And me! While suyin rushed into the toilet once we were in our room, I started to camwhore. "Okay, I have to act fast and snap picture of myself on the first day before I change my clothes."
=/

The stomach-pain girl. Poor thing. We thought the whole trip will be ruined cause of her stomach pain, Thank God she got better after that. :)

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We took tuk-tuk to go to the big market after that. And we got our self some Disney shirts. Love it! Look look look, mine is PINK! *big wide smile

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First day evening :

After we have bathed, we went down to the street to have a walk before meeting the rest of them to go out for dinner. And we stopped by this cute little craft shop because I thought I could find dream catcher there. But the result was dissapointing. :(

Suyin and I at the lobby. We tried our best to wear the same theme of clothes when we were in Thailand. LOL. In the morning it was black-and-white-stripes and evening was sesame street. Mwahaha.

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Our next stop was Floating market! It was my first visit because two years back, we didnt get to go there as it only opens on the weekend but we went there during weekday two years back. It was SERIOUSLY CROWDED too.

The entrance. Our first group photo. :D

Look at the thing the malay aunty was holding, thats how they pass money and food. :D

I was not daring enough to buy food from there to try because I am not one of those who like to try new things. Also, I canot eat spicy food and the food in Thailand are mostly spicy. :( But I got myself this! My fave coconut drinks! It came in a Hello Kitty clay mug. :D

These mugs are cute! :D If you buy only the drinks, it will cost you 20 baht, but if you pay 25 baht, you can pick any clay mug you like and they will put the drinks in there and then you can bring the mug back! :D So basically the mug only costs 5 baht, aka RM0.50. Do you think I will let go the chance? :P

Some of the food suyin and sisi bought there. :)

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After floating market, we went for dinner in a very pretty restaurant. The atmosphere and the surrounding is BIG LOVE. We all enjoyed and loved it! :) We snapped some photos outside of the restaurant while waiting for our food to arrive.

The flower is fake lah. :P

Took photos in side of the restaurant but very few. :P And also photos of the food of that night.

FOOOOOOOOOD! :D It was very yummy, and it was the yummiest meal through out the whole trip. Price? Very reasonable and worth. :)

And this is my dad <3

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After the hearty dinner, we went to Stainless steel temple. It was my second visit there because i had been there two years back. Though that time we went there in the morning, very smart tour guide. T_T

The view of the temple at night was breathtaking. The lights made the temple looked as though its made of crystal but not steel. Beautiful. And the tinkling sound of the stainless steel wind chime added another credit to the place. Beautiful x2.

And this was the reason why we had our second visit there. Suyin and Siew Li jie jie havent been there before. So, must let them get the chance to go mah. :P

And this is my little brother with his signature pose, signature smile. Didnt really take picture of myself there because my mood was bad. The road to go up to that temple was TOO dark for me and I didnt like it because I was afraid of dark. I actually grabbed Suyin's hand all the way up. =/

But I got this. Why posed "4" instead of the usual "peace"? Reason is obvious. Because I want 4As in STPM, LOL! Like it will be affected. :P

Then they also knocked this GIGANTIC gong before we went back into our van. They hit it real loud!

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We finally reached our hotel around 11pm on that day. We were all drained because we had travel for so many hours in a day. Reached hotel, cleaned up, hopped into our bed and kaboom, we slept until the next morning soundly. Hee. :)

Day 2 will be continued as soon as possible, so, do stay tuned! :D

Chloe-not-so-Schumacher :(

2011-10-05T21:18:00.007+08:00

Headed to JPN on Monday to send our art projects. YES, it is OFFICIALLY over. :)

#thankgod! :D

The only sad thing is that, I was in a rush when we were moving those boxes art room to teacher's car on that morning so I didnt get the chance to say goodbye to my microwave or my folio. :( Suyin did! I am shoo jealous. :(( I started to miss my project already, sobs. Not that I am willing to redo it if I get the chance, akhems, too time and energy consuming, but I miss the outcome of my effort. Dear MPM officer, let me to get back my project after you have evaluated it, can or not? :(((

Nevermind, back to topic, I just found out another fact about myself which cannot be covered.

Yeasss. Chloe is not so Schumacher anymore. :( I got my car license two years back when I was 17. I was one of those "unlucky" one who HAD to sit for the driving test THRICE to finally pass it. So after I passed it, like most of the new driver, I was so eager to drive around in my mom's car. I always thought it is cool and it some how represents growing up, i know its silly. :P And there starts my driving experience.

And last November, my parents got me my first car for my birthday. Whoa, of course I was happy like mad. It all went very smoothly until I met my first ever car accident in April this year when I banged into a stone by the road side. From the road side, I cried until I was back home that day. It was quite serious and my car was damaged and "hospitalised" for almost 2 months.

I really dont know how to explain but I met with my second accident one week right after I got back my car. A very stupiddd motorcyclist thought he was very cool to speed and then banged right into my car. Not as serious as the first accident, but still, I was innocent! And again, from the road side, I cried until police station. :( and I started to be phobia of speed and driving ever since.

The phobia is getting serious lately, i dont like it. :( I started to drive very slow since my accidents. Its not that its a bad thing, but I have to constantly check on my speedometer to make sure I dont drive too fast. I also have to constantly check my rear view mirror to see if there is any vehicle following me. It is scary. :(

As if it is not bad enough, recently, I dont dare to sit at the passenger seat when people drive fast. I also dont dare to sit at the middle seat at the back row in a car because I dont dare to look at the oncoming cars. There was once when my dad was driving us, I had to close my eyes all the way. My mom said i am silly and that it is normal because I just went through accidents. She said I will be okay after sometime. But... :((

When we were on the way to JPN on Monday, suyin had to drive fast in order to keep up with our teacher's driving speed. Dang, it was terribly FAST! Felt sick the whole journey. :( And when I finally laid on my bed on that night, I couldnt sleep well because I could still feel the high-way speed even when my eyes were closed. Images of high way and fast cars flashed in my brain until the moment I fell alseep. :((

Sigh.

I guess, Chloe is just not Schumacher anymore. :((

Of Noah and Allie.

2011-10-02T21:13:00.006+08:00

Yesterday afternoon, I watched The Notebook. It touched my heart and I had to tried so hard to force back my tears at the end of the movie. Its so touching! Many scenes in the movie, especially near the ending part made my eyes wet. :(

It is a love story, from the novel by Nicholas Sparks. The movie is about a couple, Noah and Allie.

When Allie was old, she had Alzheimer. She couldnt even recognise her own husband and children, she had to stay in a nursing home. But Noah didnt give up on her. He even moved into the nursing home together with Allie to keep her company. When his children asked him to go home, he said: "Look, guys. Thats my sweetheart in there. I am not leaving her. This is my home now. Your mother is my home." *cries x1 YOU TEL ME HOW NOT TO FIGHT BACK TEARS? :((

He kept reading her story from a notebook. The story he read to her was about them, from how they met, and how they finally got to be together after the hardship they faced. When the story finally made Allie remembered him, the memory only lasted for not more than 5 minutes until she pushed him away, asking him "who are you?". *cries x2! It was so sad to see Noah being pushed away, cried and trembled at that very moment when the nurses had to sedate Allie.

The same routine happened every day. He never gave up on Allie, and kept reading her story from their notebook, hoping that their memories can bring her back to him. :( In the end, Allie finally remembered him, then the next morning, the nurse found them dead together on a bed, holding hands. :(

The story is really very sad, and touching, and heart wrenching at the same time. To have someone to love Allie like how Noah did, it is really blessed, isnt it? How many couples out there can hold on to one another after so many bad things happened to them? How many couples can keep their promises for years without any word of complaint? How many couples will never give up after being pushed away for so many times? How many couples can be sure that their partner is the right one and believe in their love? :(

Noah's love and effort made me cry. Many quotes from him are memorable. I like that movie!

And.

I want that kind of love. Full stop.

Salute Chloe. :(

2011-09-28T00:43:00.007+08:00

Howdy howdy. :(

That is my art project's folio. :((

Sorry for the bad quality photo, it is taken by Bambi.

I dont know what dragged me here when the only thing I should be doing now is my ALMIGHTY and NEVER ENDING art project. Lately, after I have spent so much time on my art project, I really have some reasons to salute myself.

You see, I can sit in front of my work place for more than 8 hours a day to get my project done. I have spent three days straight doing nothing but my project. From morning till night, zero exaggeration because I really did that. Except for meal time and toilet time of course, the rest of my days were spent on my ALMIGHTY art project.

I eventually sat the whole day at the same spot to do my work. With my lappy in front of me, printer and papers on my left, and MORE papers on my right, I sat in the middle like a ~~queen~~ slave. T___T I wonder why my butt didnt burn. And the best part is, my project is still incomplete. *cries x1!

I salute myself because I never give up and my patience is really reaching tahap antarabangsa. From another angle to look into, its a good thing, isnt it? *comforting myself.

Also,

my to-do list which should be shorter day by day amazingly went the opposite way, it is getting longer day by day! I dont know why! After I have completed one task, new task SURELY popped out to greet me. I seriously dont know why is this happening to me. *cries x2!

And I salute myself because I still not yet break down and cry. Woots!

Whoever told me "ART IS A FREE A", please, step forward and give me 3000 words explanation. Who on earth said it is? Wthwthwth. It is NOT! The so-called "free A" is earned, from sweat, effort, time, body ache, hand ache, eyes pain, less sleeping hours and not to miss - EMONESS! You have no idea how emo and stressed I am. The outcome (point at the photo above) took me more than half a year to reach that thickness. *cries x3!

I SALUTE MYSELF!

Sigh.

Due is this week, SHOULD BE this week. And I am finally, thank God, 90% done. Only left those heres-and theres to tidy up, and two more pieces of sub-topic which I have no idea AT ALL how to do. :(( Anyhow I will get it done before the due, by hook or by crook.

And I am sooooo gonna chop myself if this coming weekend I didnt treat myself a movie in cinema and some good rest.

I am looking forward to complete this project, looking forward to this weekend. I need to bid goodbye to my art project and recharge my batteries and then start my revision for trial. I am hoping for the best. :(

ps: Please bear with my disjointedness in this post. Too stressed up to write a proper one. :P

Me, Myself and I!

2011-09-23T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hello hello!

To keep my blog MORE alive, i have decided to do something here, something which I wanted to do for a while. Hee. Wanna know whats that? Keep reading! ;p

I have decided to post more things about myself here, haha. I know it sounds super lame, but okay, I will just do it abit from time to time. Just some random facts about me, under the label "Its Me :D"

So, today I will start the first thing today.

My name.

My full name is Gan Xin Rou.

My parents named me. Let me have the honor to break it up and tel you the meaning of each word.

Gan means colour.

That explains why I am so "artistic", haha. NOOOU! Though I really do love arts. :D

Xin means appreciate/adore.

You have to read the meaning of my last name to know what my parents expected me to appreciate.

Rou means tender/soft.

So my parents wanted me to appreciate tenderness? Haha! Dont laugh, but my mom always wanted me to be polite and soft. .____.

Now I see how name really reflect a person's personality.

Since last time, until now, I have many people telling me that I am soft. Yada yada, I actually dont think that I am, especially after I have been through so many things lately. I am a tough girl now, yay! People just have not seen me shout or get mad I guess? ;p

Speaking of which, I dont like people calling me by my surname. The reason is obvious. Who likes to be called a "GUN"? Pistol, Machine gun, I have had enough of all these silly nicknames since primary school. Sigh.

Also, there are so many Gans in my family, how do I know which Gan are you calling, right? There was once, my brother's friend called my house phone. I picked up the phone and he asked "Hello can i speak to Gan?" I replied, "Which Gan are you looking for? We have five Gans here." And he quickly slammed the phone. And from that day onwards, whenever he calls, he would say my bro's full name. Thats so much better, dont deny! HEHEHE, all thanks to who? ME! Mwahahaha. :P

♥

And Chloe is my english name.

Named by someone very special. :)

The name Chloe is originated from Greek. I LOVE Greek! And Chloe means verdant and blooming.

Verdant means green/young plant.

Its so coincidental, both my Chinese and English name are related to colours. Though green is not my favourite colour. :( But in some way, I love green because I love nature. Animals and plants, me love! :D

Blooming means growing.

Haha, this, yes. Thanks to my name, I am always growing. :P

I love my name.

So, you know me more already by now? ;p HEHE.

Okay, tel me this post is not silly. I will come up with more interesting fact about myself soon. Finally I have something to keep my blog alive now. Toodles!

Instagram!

2011-09-20T23:55:00.002+08:00

Again, after so long without update, I am back with a super random post. Gahh.

I have an Instagram account now, yay! Thanks to Bambi, of course. So, follow me!

User name : Xrchloe

One more day till trial to be over, me cant wait! :DD

Bobo first FB contest! :D

2011-08-27T16:24:00.002+08:00

Hola, readers! :D

Bobo and I have just joined a Facebook contest. It is the the-most-like-will-be-the-winner contest. And Bobo really hope to win that contest! Can you all please take one min and give him a LIKE? :D

Step 1:

Like this page.

Step 2:

Like BOBO's photo here!

The highest score now is already more than 1k. Honestly, we dont even know whether we stand a chance. :( But still..

Thank you very very much for the LIKE. We really appreciate it. <3

Liese Bubble Hair Color (Dark Brown) Review

2011-08-23T13:51:00.001+08:00

Harlow lovelies

Akhems. Many people have asked me about this product. Therefore, here is a post, a review about Liese Bubble Hair Colour that I have used two months ago. I wanted to post it right after I tried, but then I dragged it till now. You can put the blame on me. T__T

Let me start with WHY would I suddenly picked this to dye my hair. Okay, honestly, my original hair is not black, I am born with brownish hair. After my SPM, I dyed it to ash brown (no ask brown color in "text color",haha!) and I dyed it to black again before I entered form six. I dont know why, the black color kinda faded & of course with my new hair growing out, my hair color was super not even. It looked like I have highlighted my hair. It was really horrible, I kid you not. :(

So after contemplating again and again, I finally made up my mind to dye it again! And reasons why I chose this brand of dye are listed below :

It is famous? (I have read and heard that many people are using it. Bloggers mainly, note that.)
It is cheap! (My hair length, to dye in a saloon, it will cost me around rm300. But I got Liese Bubble Hair Color for only rm33 because I bought it during promotion, heee!)
The packing is pretty! (Go and look at the box la. It is wayyy more tempting that any other hair dye I can find in the market. Good strategy, Liese. HAHA. )
I didnt wanna spend too much on dyeing my hair because I was afraid that my school teacher might not like it. I was planning that IF they catch me then I will dye my hair back to black again. (Honest enough.)
I have done many surveys and read many reviews about this product, so I thought, hmm, why not give it a try? ;)

So, here it comes. My first experience of DIY hair dyeing. :))

As I have mentioned above, I didnt want to create any discipline problem in school, I picked DARK BROWN. The darkest colour in the series.

Things that you will get in the box.
1. Solution 1 (The small maroon bottle)

2. Solution 2 (The big transparent bottle)
3. Pink bottle cap
4. Skin allergy test (The one in plastic packet)
5. Leave-in lotion (See the small orange packet?)
6. Instructions (A super long one, haha)
7. A pair of glove (It is not in the picture though. How thoughful this company is.)

The instructions.
See? I told you it is long. ;p Take your time to read it. :)
A picture of my hair color before I dyed it.

See the difference in color? :(

Before you begin, you are advised to carry out the allergy test first.
Just pour a TINY bit of both solutions on the cardboard given(the portion is stated in the instruction), use a cotton bud to mix them well and apply a 10-cent-big spot on your body.

#1 reminder:
Apply the solution that you have mixed on a less obvious place, because the stain will be there for a few days, so it is super weird to have one "extra" birth mark on your body.

The test should be carried out 48 hours before you dye your hair to see if your skin is allergic to the chemical. But I was too excited to wait for soooo many hours therefore, I did the test an hour before I dyed. *mom rolled eyes*

Nothing bad happened lah. Mwahaha. So, after ensuring no allergy, you can start dyeing your hair, wohoo!

And to start dyeing your hair, mix solution 1 into solution 2.
Just pour everything inside and close it.

Mix the two solutions well by inverting the bottle for around 5 times. I did 8 times. ;p

#2 reminder:
Do not shake it because you may create bubble in the bottle. Not good. ;p

And tadah, this is how the mixed solutions looked. :)
Dont get shocked by the change of colour of the solution. Just replace the white cap with the pink cap.

#3 reminder:
Take out all the accessories before you REALLY start dyeing.

You should wear the glove before you start doing everything but I forgot. T__T
But still, of course I wore it before I started dyeing my hair.
#4 reminder:
Wear an unwanted towel on your shoulder too to prevent the color from dirty-ing your shirt.

Then, breathe in breathe out. HAHA, when you are finally ready, hold the bottle upright and squeeze the body of the bottle to get the bubble aka the foam. Can you imagine how excited I was when I finally squeezed out the bubble? ;)

Say hello to bubbles and apply it on your hair! :D

And all you need to do after that is just repeating the step. Massage the bubble gently on your hair, make sure ALL your hair is bubbled (New word, woots!) Its easy no worries! Haiya, just like how you wash your hair la.
The only problem in this step is that the smell of the dye is VERY STRONG & PUNGENT!
#5 reminder:
Wear a mask or hold your breath! Or faint!

After you have done bubbling your hair, leave it for 30 minutes. :) #6 reminder: Dont leave it for more than 30 minutes cause the color may be different if you leave it for too long.

ps: My mom was the one who bubbled my hair. Dont worry you can do it yourself of course. But my mom did it because she said I was very clumsy. =/

This was how my hair looked after I got it all bubbled. But actually, you should get a headful of bubble by then! I was so worried when there was not much bubble on my hair, so worried that my DIY would fail. But I didnt give up, of course. I just left it there for half an hour before rinsing it off.

When 30 minutes is up, rinse the bubble off with your shampoo and dry your hair. Lastly, apply the leave-in condition and you are done with your new hair colour. According to the sales lady, the leave-in condition is from the brand called Asience. I LOVE the smell of it! Big big love!

I was too excited to snap photos of my newly dyed hair right after I dyed it. But here are some of the photos I have taken long after I dyed it, haha. Hah! This is a very good prove that the color doesnt fade. ;p

#1. Taken under yellowish light of Vincci shop. ;)

#2 - Hair color in flash.

#3 - Snapped using lappy's webcam.

Until today, I am still in love with the colour of my current hair. It is not too bright, not too dark. And the colour is very natural. Just, love it! :)

Before I tried this products, I have read many reviews on the net that mention the problems they face during and after using this product. But, I am glad that I have no problem with Liese Bubble Hair Color. The bubble didnt drip when I left it there. My hair is not dry after I dyed it. No nothing but satisfaction. With less than rm40 and 1 hour, you can get your hair dyed. What else do you want, you tel me? ;p

I hope this review is useful to anyone who wanna try out this product. Seriously, no regret for trying it. And i will dye it again with another colour after my exam. :)) Anyhow, if you wanna know more about this product, just click HERE. :D Enjoy!

Big Confession.

2011-08-16T00:08:00.007+08:00

Suddenly have the urge and ohmm to blog in the middle of the night. So, howdy howdy! :D

Warning: It is a long post ahead.

Okay, my blog tittle. *point up. I have something BIG to confess today. Its something very silly that happened few days back, I still blushed tomato red whenever I think back of it. If only you could understand how silly that was.

All right. Here it comes.

Everyone has their own talent. All kind of talents. And for me, I dont know why, as I am growing older, I have discovered a new talent of my self. I am VERY TALENTED in doing all sorts of stupid and embarrassing things. Not when I was little, but now! When I am going to be a 20 years old next year. Let me just give you a few examples of the stupid and embarrassing things that I have done recently.

The other day, I choked drinking Ribena. I was making a joke when my siblings and I were sitting round the dining table, eating. I suddenly felt that my joke was very funny(but actually it wasnt) and i started laughing. The Ribena went up and down my throat. How do I make you understand the real situation? Okay, it is like you are gargling with Ribena. I tried so hard to swallow the Ribena so that I could continue laughing but then it didnt want to go down my throat. So it just kept going up and down and up and down my throat until finally successfully swallowed it and continued laughing. My throat, then itched for the whole day.

#1 Die of embarrassment!

Okay. Thats not stupid enough. I have one more example.

Lately, I can slip and fall easily. There were a few times in school, I stepped on my own kain kurung and nearly fell. Why am I so short? Why is the kain kurung so long?!

Sometimes even when I was walking on a flat or smooth road, I could just trip over NOTHING. Usually I wont fall la, I will just trip and miss one step. And then I would announce proudly "Oii yoh! Lucky didnt pokai." Then usually, my bestie Suyin or my sis would roll their eyes and ask, "Like this also you can trip ah?"

There was once, we were coming out from a building. There was a small flight of staircases before we reached my car. Beside the staircases, there was this "slope" for those disabled people to come down with wheelchair. I dont understand how could i be that smart. I didnt want to go down from staircases, so I used the "slope" instead. And I didnt know how also, suddenly, I just tripped and fell. It wasnt bad enough, because I was born too creative, I didnt fall like how normal people fall. I kneeled on the slope. Okay, STILL wasnt bad enough. Suyin and sis didnt make it to catch me or hold me up. So I tried to stand up on my own, bravely. And Jeng Jeng Jeng, I stood up, turned 360 degree and ~~fell~~ kneeled there again. By the time I realised what happened, Suyin and my sis were laughing like mad already and I started seeing stars above my head.

#2. Die of embarrassment!

I AM talented, right?

Okay, now. My post intro is a little too long. Now Im going into my main point. Few days back, what happened in school was, I cried. *talk about it I also cukup malu!

My Business teacher was giving back our exam papers. When I got back my paper, my first reaction was "whadddt? this is my marks?". It was not THAT BAD but it was kinda terrible compared to all my past exams. I tried to get a few more marks from teacher by checking my answers with him. I was hoping that he counted wrongly. But failed. No marks added because he didnt mark wrongly or counted wrongly.

Then my tears started to fall. I started crying. Dont ask me why! I dont know! T__T And you know there are a few types of crying, the silent one, the not-so-noisy one, and the almighty-sob-hard one. Okay, mine was the last type. I started sobbing so hard as thought the sky was falling or something. Man, it was so so so so embarrassing and I couldnt stop sobbing. I cried for almost one friggin hour. Until my mucus also started to fall non stop and I had to stuff two pieces of tissues in my nose to prevent them from flooding my class. Dang.

My teacher also got a shocked and he kinda like, afraid of my reaction? For the whole lesson, he dare not even to talk to me, lol! He only said," xinrou will be one of the student that I will never ever forget." And before he left the class, he told the malay girl who sits beside me in class, "please take good care of her." HAHAHA!

The only reason why I sobbed so hard was not because of my result. Okay, honestly, it was not as good as I have expected but then I would not cry IF ONLY I WASNT PMS-ING on that day! Dang PMS! I never behave like myself when it strikes. Seriously, if there was a mood-swing competition, I would be the champion without competing.

So, in conclusion, moral of the story is, from today on, I will hide in my house whenever i am pms-ing, thats safer for me and for everyone.

End of story. Tel me I am not amazing. Tel me I am not talented. Sekian terima kasih. ;p

I am a lousy blogger!

2011-08-12T22:24:00.005+08:00

I KNOW right, I am a super lousy blogger. The dust that has accumulated on my blog is reaching maximum thickness already. Nehh. :(( But I have reasons lo, or you can call them "EXCUSES" *hide face!

Days are tooooo "boring" and "routine-ish" until I have nothing to update. BUT, I have drafted a review about Liese Bubble Hair Colour few days back, it is just that I still havent arranged the photos properly. ;p

Okay, a little update about my current life, if anyone is interested to know what am i up to. :)

#1. Art Project.

I am STILLL very berusaha-ing and bertungkus lumus-ing doing my art project. Due is early September. I have chosen the question where it requires us to make a microwave model, including a folio to complete it. It is really not easy. :( and my microwave model keep cracking, I have to repaint and repaint it with PuttyFiller. Fingers crossed that I can finish it fast. *cry

Desperate face. T__T

Serious face. Dont prey prey. ;p

#2. Preparing myself for T.R.I.A.L.

STPM trial is approaching in less than a month's time. So, staying-up mission and study-hard mission has already started in order to complete my syllabus before the test. Nothing much to say about this because as a student, this is what I should do. :) Hard work will be paid off, i hope?

See my tiny?
dont know why, I will have a long list of to-do every day!

Trial is on the 6th of September. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

#3. Random! :D

And since this post is just another usual random post, so here are some of the very random things that I can share. They are super random, dont kill me. HAHA!

This is my bed. That is my Gingerboy. I am looking for a sister for my Gingerboy. I want another Ginger baby so so much. But i couldnt find it in Maggie T outlet anymore. :((IF anyone happen to pass by any Maggie T store, can you all please help me to check it out whether they are still selling it? And then please please let me know? :(((

Ooh! This is my Jackie! :D
I just bought him a new clothes two days back. rm25 gone. T__T
Im gonna pinkify it when I go to Thai. HEHEHEHE. Why? Because pink is love! <3

End of post. HAHAHA. Super lame, right? ;p I really have got nothing much to update, seriously. I appreciate it because i still have some very kind and loyal readers who are still checking out my blog on and off. So touched. :((
ps: This includes you, a name! ( Idk if you are reading this, but thank you so much for always leaving comments and support! );D

If there is anything, just add me in FB and chat to me! I dont bite and I am always there. :) Till then. Wait for my Liese review! Much love ♥♥

Apologies?

2011-07-29T22:32:00.005+08:00

So.. Yerp, thats me. Stronger and wiser, i hope.

I have been thinking to post this up since very long ago. Contemplated again and again because I know the content of this post will be spreaded around. Offensive or not offensive, dont judge me. These are my feelings.

So, here we go.

Forgive and forget.

If you know me, I am sure you know what had happened to me few months back. I got the worst time in my life when someone whom USED TO be close to me did something to hurt me. Hurt till an extend where I became numb.

Zero exaggeration if you were in my shoes. Let me tel you, a "sorry" just cant mend back anything. Dont talk me about inner peace and forgiveness when YOU are the one who did all this. Not that you didnt know it was wrong and hurtful. You KNEW it, but you chose to do it anyhow. Reason? Because you want something new.

Do you remember what you did to me? Do you remember the hurtful words you said to me? If you cant, i can tel you, word by word. You dont know how much you have hurt me, you dont know how much that HURT will affect me. Dont have to find excuse to cover what you have done. Killing people with a strong reason is still called killing. So, hurting me with a so-called acceptable reason is still called hurting. Doesnt help when your reason is not acceptable. :)

And now you are throwing me your apologies. Actually, I dont understand your purpose of doing it. Apologize but at the back of me you still keep doing things that will hurt my feelings, or i should say, reminds me of what you have done. What is the point of apologizing then? Dude, I am not blind, I am not deaf.

Whether you believe it or not, I dont care about what you are doing anymore. You have no effect over me anymore. I have already deleted you from my life,totally. Apologize or not, it doesnt change anything because I have already put EVERYTHING about you far away from my life, long before you apologized. I dont want to think back about it because I feel ASHAMED for trusting you at the first place.

Whatever it is, I accept your apologies. But just so you know, accepting apologies doesnt mean those ugly memories will be erased. Accepting apologies doesnt mean I can forget the hurt. And it also doesnt mean there will be a fresh new start for us. You mean it or you dont mean it, I dont need people who purposely hurt me to stay in my life.

No matter what happen, i will still keep my guard up and keep my distance. I SERIOUSLY dont want to have anything to do with you anymore. I wont let you come close enough to hurt me anymore.

Owh. And..

Inner peace? I will be inner and outer peaceful if I am free from you. Ya, so, kthxbai. :)

I take care of my own happiness.

2011-07-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

I dont understand.

What do you expect me to reply?

How do you expect me to respond?

Why say sorry when it is already too late?

I really dont understand.

Dont bring it up. Dont bother to apologize now. Dont remind me of it.

Things that you have done. Words that you have said. Actions of yours that I dont want to even think back.

There is no way to erase my memories of them. There is no way to mend it anymore. And there is no point of doing so because I am already numb.

Not every "Sorry" deserve an "Its okay" in return. The scar will always be there.

I'm strong because I know what it feels like to be weak. I keep my guard up, because I know what it feels like to cry myself to sleep. I wont let you close enough to hurt me anymore, I want to take care of my own happiness.

#2 ranting

2011-07-17T10:37:00.005+08:00

It is Sunday morning!

Birds should be chirping happily outside my window, the sun should be shinning brightly, grass should be green, flowers should be pretty and we should be happy and relax and enjoy the last day of weekend. WHY OH WHY everything just dont wanna fall into their places?

Came back from my very-happy shopping trip from Ipoh yesterday night. Now it is proven, once again, that we should not be too happy sometimes. Because everytime when i am too happy, sad things will start to happen. :(

Back to reality. Let me tel you how terrible my morning is. It is Sunday morning. But as early as 5 44am in the morning, I woke up because my ALMIGHTY ulcer which is on my lower lip was too painful. Painful until I couldnt even sleep well. Okay, nevermind, for my own good, I reluctantly climbed out from bed, went into the kitchen in the dark to find the watermelon frost (it always heals ulcer) then i ran back into my room like ninja and i tried to sleep back.

Around 7am. My dearest puppy kept scratching my room door, trying to give out signal that she wanted to go out from the room. I was so lazy to get out from my bed again so I waited and waited, thought my sister would wake up and open the door for the little monster. BUT she didnt. T_T and my puppy started to scratch the door again. And right on cue, I flashed back what happened the other day (One of my neighbour tried to open my gate early in the morning, TWICE, we still dont know what he is trying to do). Watched too much drama already kot, so i was so scared that someone was trying to break into my house so i got up from bed to open door and let my puppy out. I stood outside my room and checked what she wanted to do, i thought she wanted to go outside or what. MANA TAU she just wanted to pee.

*desperate nyerr

Nevermind, let it pass. Those are not major things still.

So I was awake. And started to worry about my art project. I started, and failed it. And I have to do it again but I dont know how. SHITNESS. The deadline is getting nearer each day, I am already at the final stage already but things just simply dont want to cooperate with me. I am sure you guys know how it feels like when your months and months of effort didnt want to work out right at the last minute. BIG SIGH. I got no choice but to redo it. :(

Keep your fingers crossed for me lah. I am already super desperate. I really have no idea how am i going to do it again now,have to start all over again and kaboom. It better work out this time, if not I will.. I will.. I will just have to start again,wth! Cry die me.

I dont know if it is only me or what, sometimes I really wish i can fast forward things. I wanna skip all these pressurized and sad moments, fast forward until exam is over. Sobs. Ignore me. I know it is impossible. :((

All right, if you read this ~~meaningless~~ post from the beginning till the end, thank you very much, you have just supported me in someway. I dont know what i am talking about so please just ignore me. I gotta run, i will be back soon.

Kthxbai.

PS: Btw, I am selling authentic Long Champ Le Pliage bags which are directly imported from US. Just leave me a message if you are interested. Thank you. :)

#nowreading :)

2011-07-16T23:50:00.006+08:00

You are The One that I dont want.

By: Alexandra Potter

♥

"Everyone dreams of finding their soulmates. It is a universal quest. All over the world, million of people are looking for their true love, their amore, their ame soeur, that one special person with whom they will spend the rest of their lives."

"Sometimes, when I least expect it, something will remind me. Of him. Of us. Of long ago. It can be as a quiz in a magazine, or as inconsequential as a restaurant table on the street, And sometimes I cant help wondering what my life would be like if things had worked out."

♥

Unspoken.

2011-07-12T20:12:00.005+08:00

So many things running about in my mind, so many things to say them out loud, but i really dont know where to start. I have typed this post, edit,edit and edit it for so many times before i clicked "Publish Post". I really have many things to say. My feelings are all jumbled. BIG MESS.

Over the past few months, many things had happened around me: Studies, Relationships with people, Family and Incidents after incidents. Both good and bad. Lost alot, learnt alot. I have so many questions to figure out. I have a tons of feelings to express. I am just, not the old me anymore.

I have a habit of browsing old photos and journals when I am free. I did, yesterday. And memories started to run back to me all in a sudden. How time flies, how things change. Why nothing lasts forever? Why we always tend to appreciate things after we have lost them? Why time doesnt seem to heal everything like what the quote said?

Recently, there is this thing, made me regret so much. I didnt do something that i should have done easily. There are things that I wanted to tel someone but i didnt do it when i had the chance. It will remain as one of the biggest regret in my life because I know i will never get the chance to do it again. Can we turn back time?

Ashamed. Regret.

It gave a big impact to me. And it made me think alot. My insecurities are growing stronger day by day. To a certain extent that it is seriously freaking me out. I cant get a conclusion of what had happened, it is still bothering me. But one thing for sure, I will have to learn to appreciate and love people who love me. Because I dont want to wait til it is too late ever again.

Quote :

Looking back, I have this to regret,

that too often when I loved,

I did not say so.

10.07.2011.

2011-07-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

You will always be remembered. I love you.<3

Athlete! :D

2011-07-03T09:38:00.008+08:00

Yuhoo! It was the 1 murid 1 sukan 1 malaysia run yesterday. On that morning, i was SO SO SO reluctant to go to school and kept saying that the event had spoiled my beautiful Saturday. LOL, but then...

Akhem! I got Top ten for the run! Mwahahaha,unbelievable? ;p I got number ten! ;p

It was a BIG news for me, cause that was the first time ever i got placing in sports event. I remember during our school cross country few months back, even the ambulance also faster than me. And the teacher who escorted me said "Naik motor lah, cikgu hantar you balik" LOL.

But this time, i really didnt know how i did it. I just,made it! HAHA. I guess my face looked very miserable cause half way through out the run, Jane told me that i looked like as if i was going to puke. BIG BIG THANKS TO JANE AND JO, they were the main factor why i won this time. Jane accompanied me during the whole run, and then Jo lagi hebat, when i reached my school gate, i still didnt know that i was the 10th winner, so i just walked slumber-ly until she shouted "XR, faster, top ten!"

Then KABOOM! I ran like a ninja, minus my headspin and legs-turned-into-jelly part, i ran to the teacher and tadah! I was the 10th winner. ;p Jo told me that I was running side way, going to fall anytime. HAHA!

As if it wasnt heroin enough, I joined the netball match after the run. Upper Six vs Lower Six. Another EPIC of the day because our team WON. :D Well, i was the minor-est player in the team lah of course, i didnt contribute any point, my only and biggest contribution was when i grabbed the ball from one of the lower six girl. ;pp

Our team, with the two young and pretty practical teachers. :)

See see see! I sudah stand by mau attack. ;p
Whoa, look. Some more got pose one. T__T

14-0

YAY! :D

LOL. That was the day for the run. Happy, of course, because finally, there is something for me to write in my "Pencapaian Sukan" column in the report card. It has been empty since long long time ago. :(

♥

And then now, a little sneak peak about my art project, aite? My Tamagotchi aka Egg shaped microwave. :D

Can see the shape already right? HEHEHEHE! Wish me luck to complete it yo! :D Okay, a very long post, i gotta go now, BM homework is calling me. Sigh. Taa, readers! Have a blessed Sunday. :D

I AM BACK!

2011-06-20T14:55:00.012+08:00

Omg omg omg, after nearly one month, i am back,people! *excited mode! I dont know why, but for the past whole month, i couldnt log in to my blog. It showed Error 404. T__T Was thinking to change to wordpress but thank God, now it is fine already. Phew!

So many things that I wanted to blog and now i dont know where to start. LOL. Okay, lets talk about the latest / the hottest thing in my life now. Akhem.

Remember this? The ZAP-ME project?

And the project to help Mak Cik Laila to expand her nasi lemak business?

Finally, we went for the competition in UTP last Saturday. Competed with 16 other schools, and WE MADE IT! We are the champion for both projects! Really unexpected and really over the moon. One very sad thing is that, we didnt get to be the champion for the Over All Award, we are the 1st runner up. How sad and disappointed. :(

Nevermind, now. Picha time! We have snapped more than 400 photos on that day, and I have picked out some to post them here. Categorized them also. So, enjoy! :D

♥

Group photos.
#1 - Business women watching other's presentation. HAHA.
#2 - With teachers and jo's mami.#3 - Saint Anthony Corporation. ;p#4#5#6

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During our presentation.
#1 - Final for Project A.

#2#3#4
#5 - Final for Project B.
#6

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Prize giving ceremony
#1 - Champion for Project B#2 - Champion for Project A
#3#4

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Supporters!
Participants from SMK Ave Maria Convent and I. :)

Group picture! :)

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Thats the summary of the competition. :) Really never expect to win both the Projects. Happy maximum lah,really. HAHA. Thanks thanks and thanks to everyone who has supported us in any way. Without you all, i am sure we couldnt make it till the end. Thanks to my teammates for putting in so much effort for this whole competition too. It is one of my best memory in Form Six. :)

"Champion for Project A, Champion for Project B, 1st runner up for Over-all Award. We are Saint Anthony Corporation from SMK St. Anthony."

Flunked.

2011-05-19T23:44:00.001+08:00

Its 11 40pm right now. I am laying on my bed, with Jackie in my hand. Should be sleeping but I am blogging instead. Owh,this is my first post using handphone anyhoo.

Today is 19th May 2011.
Today is a terrible day. Terrible enuff to make me reflect about myself. Yes,that terrible. My mid year results suck, suck to the max. I really dont understand. Why even when I didnt study for the previous exam but I could do better than this? Wtf. My results is like keep dropping since beginning of the year. Eff those idiotic things that keep me distracted, good job and well done. It is like a nightmare which keeps coming back to haunt me. Serve me right.

It is a wake up call for me. I really can't bear to see my result to get any worse than this. Fml. I am not studying hard enuff,this is what troubles me always. I have to plan for a real timetable for myself to follow. There is no more time for me to waste. I cannot risk my STPM, I know.

Can I have someone to brainwash me kuat kuat for once? Fmlfmlfml. It has reached a certain extent where I think I should go and find a counselor. :(

From tomorrow onwards, I will start my plan. I WILL NOT FAIL any subject in my trial and I will do my best. This is what I said and I will keep my words. Just wait to see the changes. Kthxbai.

New layout,yay!

2011-05-17T01:32:00.003+08:00

It is 1.32am. Akhems. Big round of applause to me please. ;p I have finally done the new layout! YAYNESS! After spending hours in front of my lappy facing all those HTML codes,phew,dont play play ah,HAHA. I guess this layout will be here again for a dinosaur period of time. So, i hope you guys like it! :)

Okay okay, I should go to bed now. Have to wake up early to go tomorrow.

Its Vesak holiday, i know. But then my to-do list is waiting for me and I have tons of things to be completed.

Anyhow, Happy Vesak, readers!

ps: Anyone noticed it? In this post, I purposely added a few icons,haha. *beria betul! ;p

pp/s: The comment function is now available for my blog. So, akhems, pandai-pandai leave me a few comments to make me happy abit lah ya. ;p

When September ends

2011-05-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

Yuhoo, peeps! Its yours truly again. :) Lately, i dont know why, i just have the mood to get back into blogging and noting down my life journey in this blog. And i have just realised that my blog skin is the same old one since dinosaur years back! So, new look for my blog will be up soon, real soon. *winks!

Except Xanbo, I have been busy with my mid year exam these few days. Right, I have screwed it bad nuff, fml. I can literally bid goodbye to my 3.0 pointer. BIG shit, I thought I can maintain my results above that pointer through out the whole form six some more. T___T

Exam sucks, especially Business. Mainly because I have not been studying hard enough. Sigh. CHLOE, Y U NO STUDY HARD? :( I am seriously lacking of motivation! Can someone just talk to me to motivate me? I mean it. :((

Also, I have watched a few movies and read a few blogs about people studying over seas. I want. :( I really really wish to go overseas to study next time. And I really really wish to travel also. Man, I have to study hard!

I am sure it will be fun and nice right, to study in a totally different environment, to mix with people from different backgrounds and stories, to get to experience the 4 seasons! Aww! Just imagining it also make me drool already. :p

Readers, you guys still remember my princess QQ? She fell sick few days back. The vet said she was having fever, and eyes infection. Sob.

Her eyes look weird these few days. they are constantly watery and WEIRD! I am worried. I really am. Every night, I hug her and pray for her to be healthy and happy. She brings alot of laughter to my family since the day we brought her back. I cannot afford to lose her. Keep your fingers crossed for my puppy, will you,readers?

Before I end my post. :) My post title, a song which reminds me of some one special. :) A person whom I have shared most of my secrets with, a person whom I spent half of my teenage years crazily with. A person whom I trust, without the need to make pinky promise. A person whom mould me into part of who I am today. I appreciate it.

Just wanna say thank you for everything you have done. You are a very beautiful piece of memory of my life and you will always be. If I were given a chance to choose again, I will choose to have you in my life again. :))

Xanbo!

2011-05-11T14:31:00.002+08:00

Greetings from Danbo, everyone! *YAYNESS!

Yesterday, 10th May 2011. I finally got my own Danbo! I named him Xanbo, aka Danbobo, aka Bobo. Xanbo, you know what it means by the "X". ;p

Ahhh! He is really super tiny and chiooo! Basically just cant get my hands off him. ;p

#1 - Bobo says Hi to everyone! Finally he is home! :D

#2 - The weather was HOT.
Bobo wanted to drink coconut drinks, but he couldnt reach.

#3 - In the evening, Bobo told me that he wanna study Business, so that he can help me in my exam. Aww, how sweet is he!

#4 - Bobo rode in his F1 car around the house. He said he wanna meet his kai ma. ;p

Cute to the max, aint he? :D Though many people still dont understand why i like it so much,haha. Its love at first sight, no explanation. ;p More and more photos of my Xanbo will be coming up, so,stay tuned!

Far away.

2011-05-04T18:38:00.008+08:00

Konichiwa, readers! :D

It has been long (again) since I last blogged about my life, yes? So here I come,hee! Here is about a family trip of mine. Last weekend. We went to Genting to chill during the Labour Day holiday. Me simply love trips! *big wide grin!

Ahh. Let the photos do the talking. These photos are not arranged in sequence, but then... enjoy! ;D

#1 - My queen. Much love for her.

Ahh, look! She was wearing the kitschen top i bought for her! :D

#2 - Queen and I. This merry-go-round was what i used to play when i was little.

I was sooooo obsessed with it that I refused to come down from the ride even though it was over, LOL.

#3 - But... People changed,you know. ;p Last time was merry-go-round, now, it is SPACE SHOT! HAHA. Sis and I went to out door theme park without mom this time. And idk where did i get the courage, i lined up for this game.

It was a big OMG, i kid you not! Being "thrown down" from 185 feet high was not a joke! I stunned and opened my eyes wide when we were being "thrown" down. Phobiaa! When mom knew it, she said sarcastically, "play again lah next time." :(

#4 - Met with these pretty cosplay people. Friendly enough. :)

#5 - And this antique car. We didnt get to ride because the queue was WAY TOOO long. So i just snapped a photo with a display car. :(

#6 - London Bus! I love it! :D

#7 - Hello hello, may i speak to Prince William? ;pp

*still not over with the William and Kate fever, omg.

#8 - My sis and I. She is half a head taller than me. T__T

#9 - Love. :)

#10 - Big merry-go-round. Idky, all the photos I took in front of this merry-go-round are cacat. Hng!

#11 - It is nice to feel like a kid sometimes. Play with no worries, laugh with no worries. :)

#12 - Big fat kiss for you, Allie! I hope other tourists wont think that i was crazy? ;p

#13 - We went to the Dinosaurland too! And I fell down at the entrance.

Yes, again! >...

#14 - And we played this one too! HAHA. I am brave eh? ;p

#15 - My current fb's profile picture. ;p

#16 - If and only if making wish like this can make our dreams come true. :)

Thats all about my trip,hee. It was just a two days trip but then it was enough to release part of my stress. :D

Exam is approaching. I should be studying, not online-ing 24/7. Sigh. Anyhoo, all the best to my readers who will be sitting for exams too. Toodles! :D

The yummiest and most affordable nasi lemak in Teluk Intan

2011-04-29T20:54:00.003+08:00

Knock knock,readers! Can you sense the cheerful mood in my blog today? *big wide smile! And have the photos above made you start drooling? Heee!

So, today, yours truly have tasted the yummiest and most affordable nasi lemak in the whole of Teluk Intan! *jumps! My friends and I had our tea/lunch/early dinner there,lol. We loved it! Isnt nasi lemak the favourite food of us Malaysian? :D

#1 - Ch Tan and Esther, picking their fave Malay dishes. :)
Owh there are too many choices : Ayam rendang, ayam goreng, sotong, kerang dan lain-lain lagi. ;p

#2 - Yours truly! Since when aku tak takut pedas? LOL, i cant stand the nasi lemak temptation lah! ;p
And pls ignore my kiam pak face in this picture,idky this expression will be there. .___.

#3 - This is ming qiu. LOL, just look at her expression. Do you STILL need me to explain how yummy is it?

#4 - Big big clap for us! Sapu bersih-bersih! :DD

#5 - We are friends already now,haha! :D
I support them!
Aza aza, aunty, satu hari nanti buka restoran nasi lemak besar-besar ye. ;D

#6 - This is the place. :D Restoran Anson View. It is located at the same row with 81 solution. Some where near San Min secondary school. i am sure you guys know the place,right? :D
Owh yeah! the aunty is just at the corner of the shop. If you go from Yu Zu,it is the first stall you see. She is the only one selling nasi lemak there anyhow,haaahaa!

She is selling nasi lemak everyday from 3pm - 8pm. Go grab it! :D

My dearest readers, you guys will go and support this nasi lemak stall, right? :)) Go and have a try, it is really yummy and the price is affordable too! Where else in TI you can find such nice nasi lemak to eat, you tel me? :))

Pho-bia.

2011-04-25T22:31:00.004+08:00

Greetings to my dear readers. :)

Something had happened to me few days back, if you guys realized. I think it is something that I should blog about, so that maybe one day i can ~~flash back~~ about it. LOL. It will always be a lesson and an incident that i will never forget to me.

I met with an accident on the 23rd April 2011, 2 days before my 5th month anniversary with my car. I banged into a stone by the drain, i dont know how and why. I was driving slow and even stopped for more than 20 seconds before i made the turning. But then,kaboom,there it went,i banged directly into the stone. And my car is SERIOUSLY damaged. *cries

The impact of the bang was so big that my bumper and gear box and water tank and the engine tank thing broke. Imagine how i felt when i saw those red red oil/petrol pouring out from my car, I was so scared that it would explode. Too much of hong kong drama, dad said, lol. My sis and i were crying by the road side, and then one thing that made me pissed was that - a police car passed by, they saw there was an accident, BUT THEY DID NOT STOP TO OFFER THEIR HELP. WTF?! Only know to hide behind trees? .__.

Thank God, even though the impact and damage were so great, nothing happened to me and my sis, who was riding with me. And thank God also, my parents didnt even scold me a single word. In fact, they have been trying to comfort me. It was really touching. :(( Really grateful enough. =/ Since the day of the accident till today, I am still living in phobia of driving. Aftershock? Yeah, that must be it. I am so afraid to hear the "bang" sound again. Seriously, i am very,very scared. Have been crying every night since that incident, the image and the sound of the bang keep flashing in my mind when i close my eyes. It is very scary.

One picture of that accident? Nah, here is it. Cant really see how terribly my car damages were. It was kinda those "internal injuries", cant be seen outside. ;p

Next. Another thing that pissed me off.

Hey. Not every sorry is exchangeable with an "its okay". Apologizing for all the shits you put me through did not make me forget the SHITS that you have caused. Only you and I know what the shit happened. If you really think everything will be back to normal after you apologized, then maybe you are just too naive. Anyhow, your apologies didnt deserve forgiveness.

They always tell me "Dont treat him like him lah". I wonder, why no body ever tell him to "dont treat xr like this" before? You guys consider about his feelings because he is your friend. Then who on earth consider about mine?!

Maybe you can call me selfish or not being forgive-ful enough. Tel them whatever you want, tel them how great you are, tel them you are doing all these for me, tel them whatever you want to tel. All these are just lies and excuses to cover what you are doing. Does it even make sense?

For goodness sake. Just, fuck off.

Zap Me!

2011-04-19T00:20:00.005+08:00

Alohaaa,readers! I am back! This time, with something GREAT to share with you guys. Hee,no more emo-ish post lahh. :D Akhem,are you guys ready?

*drum rolls,please!* ;p

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TADAH! This is it! ZAP-ME!

Zap Me is a series of handmade pencil case and pouch, created by S.A.C. which is formed by a group of Sixth former students of SMK St Anthony Teluk Intan. Since the past month till today, we have been collecting jeans from people around us to produce this recycled item to sell it. :)

Continue reading, i will explain to you what is this about. :D

#1 - Collection of unwanted jeans and shirts. Mountain-high leh!

#2 - Meeting again and again to discuss about our project.

#3 - Materials. :)

#4 - Materials, again. :))

#5 - And this is how the concept goes! Click to enlarge,hiak hiak!

#6 - These are the accessories that you can buy to "zap" on your pencil case/pouch.
For this season, there are 9 different accessories for you to choose. They are : Frog, Teddy bear, Ribbon, Rabbit, Mushroom, Heart shape,Smiley face, Chicken and Star. We are selling them at rm2 per piece.

#7 - And this! Is my current pencil case. Isnt it super chio?! I always play with my froggie when i am bored in the class. ;p

#8 - We are selling pouch (4") for rm3.

#9 - Pencil case (8") for rm5.
#10 - Pencil case (10") for rm8.

Every design of ours is different because we made them based on what we have on our hands. That the unique part of it. We have variety colours of zip for you to choose too! :D Here is one video clip about this product.

Enjoy! :D

Support us by buying our products! :D Click this to go to my Facebook for more info and to place your order. :))

Support us!!

What are words if you dont mean them.

2011-04-06T22:03:00.007+08:00

I am alive,people! ;p BIG ALOHA from yours truly,greetings to all! :D

My blog is so dead,lol. Okay,just to tel you guys that i am still alive. Stuffs around me are keeping me super busy and leave me with no any extra time to think about nonsense. Good. :))

But right,let me blah for a while okay? Yesterday,something happened and pissed me real off. Damn, some poeple just wont grow,is it? I really dont understand why would someone do that, none of us actually do.

After everything that you put us through,you still can act like it is non of your business and just try to live your life on like nothing ever happened? I have learnt something value-able through that incident though, if you really dont want to be judged, then dont friggin do things that will give chances for people to judge you.

I understand it is impossible to please everyone in this world. But sometimes I think as we grow older, we should grow wiser to know what is right and wrong too. I know I am not perfect enough to say that, but I am trying hard,too. But then again, seriously and honestly, our past-regardless good or bad, are not something that we can just easily sweep off. Its not that we go to a new place or start a new life then the past will be gone. NO, in fact, they will always be there, no matter we want them or not.

And to another person, please, stop assuming that I am a road block in your way to whatever you are trying to get. After all these nonsense that I had been through, I didnt even say a word to you or even interact with you. So, TOLONGLAH, you are free to do and go for anything you like okay? No one can stop you. Wake up and appreciate your friends around you. :)

Sorry for the long rant,really will explode if i dont type them out. Before i end my post,let me share some pictures with you guys. :))

#1 - A random evening in the park with Kay Ean. :)

#3 - MUET speaking test. It sucks. >..<
#4 - OTW back from KL during my solo trip.
#5

#6 - My siblings! <3

Thats all for this time. Take care people. I will be back! ;p

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2011-03-04T16:51:00.006+08:00

"Dont make a girl fall for you if you have no intention to catch her"

Bear this in mind. :))

Hey people. It has been a while,isnt it? So here I am today, finally, to blog about something that is kept inside my heart for quite a while. Decided to talk bout it here because I dont want to see those people who love me to be worried about me. Enough is enough, at least for now.

All right. Talked about my stories in school today, dont know how and who and why, the topic suddenly came up. And i am sorry that i have been making so many people worried about me all these time. I guess you guys are right. Why I have been so calm about my break up with him? Why I can be so normal in just a short time? Well, these questions, i have been asking myself for multiple times as well. And i finally got the answer. You didnt wake me up, you hurt me up. I am NUMB. My heart DIED. I have HAD ENOUGH HURT. :)

Numb, because every word of yours pierced through my heart like sharp knives. And more and more truths discerned after our break up, there are too many things that I see with own eyes, forcing me to believe and see who is the real you. And i have been asking my self, "do I really know you?" Honestly, really numb already, really cant feel anything anymore whenever i hear or see something hurtful. It is a good thing, in some way, right?

My heart died because i have tried so many times and the result is just the same. Nothing change, not because I havent done enough, it is just that you are not willing to give in. And what hurt the most is all the EXCUSES and REASONS you gave me. A million words would not bring u back i know cause i have tried, but neither would a million tears. I know cause i have cried. Whats the use of fighting alone? I didnt give up because I am tired of fighting, really. I fought till the end, till the day my heart died. I am proud of my self. :)

Enough hurt. Perhaps, just perhaps it is already a mistake at the first place. After all, I realised that I really dont understand you, I dont know which is the real you, at all. How fast can people change? It is scary. How can a person who love you so much get all those shits back in return? It is really very scary. And what hurt the most is you KNEW you have put me in this situation and this pain, but you still can laugh and joke around like nothing happened! I mean, seriously, wth?

I am numb and immune-d. It is already to a maximum and extreme level that I cant break anymore. There are many times when I listened to songs, my tears dropped automatically because they remind me of you. Many times,when i cried because I miss you. Many times,when I passed some old places that we went together, I flashed back our old times and tears just silently swelled up in my eyes. And many nights, I cried myself to sleep. :) The process of healing and standing up again isnt easy, I knew it long time ago. Through out the process, I know I will keep looking back, but I also know I will not fight anymore. ;)

I am stronger now, and more brave.

Thanks for hurting me, it helped me to grow. Thanks for the memories, they completed my life.

And to all my friends, thanks for you guys' concern and love. I am blessed to have a bunch of people who care about me around me. Thanks once again for everything, babes and dudes. I am fine. I will be. :))

Its Bunny Year. :)

2011-02-05T22:30:00.006+08:00

Its gonna be a photo-post as I am kinda ~~lazy~~ to type much tonight. Well,this year CNY? It can actually be listed as one of the worst CNY ever. My mood was basically BAD from CNY eve till the second day of new year. :( Thank God,it is getting better now,i hope? Aiks,nevermind that. Okay,my CNY. Here it goes.

CNY Eve

It was a rainy evening, had our family reunion dinner in the newest hotel in the town - The Grand Court Hotel. The rain was so so so heavy when we were having our dinner.

#1 - Daddy requested to take this photo. ;p

Rain stopped after dinner. So,we went over to granny house for a pre-cny gathering. We kids lighted up two 孔明灯 ( Kong ming deng aka SKY LANTERNS ) on that night. You know,those people used them in old-time movies where they wrote their wishes on the lantern and let them fly up to the sky? Yeah,i actually made a few wishes too. :)

#2 - The red red 孔明灯.

#3 - Trying to make it fly. Hoho.

#4 - Traditional ceremony? Gram's job. :p
Chor 1

As usual,we went to granny house for the vegetarian breakfast on the first day of CNY. It is sort of a tradition in the family already for many years. I only ate the white color fried noodles,lol. Zero picture of myself on the first day of CNY because I looked so so terrible. =/

#5 - Okay,the dishes.
#6 - QQ got a big angpow from mami this year.
And mami purposely "korek-ed" an dog-pattern angpow for QQ. O.o

Chor 3

Then chor 3. We spent our third day of CNY out station again this year. It was my lunar birthday,akhem. This time we spent it in KL : Mid Valley and 1-u! I finally bought my self a purse after searching for one for so long. I love it. :D

#7 - Look at my pale face.
Believe it or not,i was suffering from Car Sick. -.-

#8 - The deco in Mid Valley is pretty,as always.
I wonder how come they will get so many different ideas every year. Phew.

#9 - Mom and dad. Love them max.

# 10 - Little Lion. Pretty aint it? ;)

#11 - 1u. Met this crazy girl there,we got a little excited. LOL.
Ask her to turn a round,you will see how hawt she is. ;p
Ignore our face. HAHA.

Thats all about my first three days of CNY. Boring much right? I know. =/// Haih. Tomorrow will be my big day,last year of being a teenager? Ouch,we are getting older. i will update my day again soon? That is,if it is a great one.

Good night! Happy CNY. :))

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2011-02-03T15:59:00.001+08:00

All i want for birthday is you.

Happy Chinese New Year,everyone.

Strangers?

2011-02-01T23:05:00.003+08:00

It is not even a month time. That same night mare came back to me again. I cannot put the blame on anyone but myself, because it is my own choice. My choice and decision to fall for him,to commit myself in the relationship,to trust him,to give in and now,to get hurt. I am the one who should be blamed.

Have been thinking so so much recently. Is it that i am not good enough? Is it that I have done something wrong? You know how much it hurts to question yourself like that,especially when you know you have already tried your best in something that you do? It is an insult. =/

Maybe it is already a mistake at the first place. HOW CAN YOU REACT LIKE THIS? You really have no feelings or what? I am making myself to look like a fool in front of everyone who care about me. To wait for a phone that will not ring,to wait for you to give me respond that you should give. It is so hard to fake a smile when it is killing you inside. It is so hard to laugh when it is bleeding inside. Damn,what have i done wrong to deserve to be treated this way again and again?

I__you. And you know that. Why? Why you can change so fast? To a person that i do not know,it is just so scary. And i am so silly. Can you answer my questions and doubts? :'(

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2011-01-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

You wont know how much it means to me.

Thanks,ily. :)

2011-01-08T00:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY,MY DEAREST!

I really treasure having you as a friend beside me. Thanks for everything you have done for me and thanks for everything again. :D Can you believe it we have been friends for 5 years already?? HAHA.

Hope you will get and achieve everything you hope for in life. Good luck for your and our STPM. May you be happy always,dont be so emo,you are definitely fun to be though. And lastly,may you and everyone in your life will be blessed forever and ever.

I love you,KOK SU YIN!

Will. Way.

2011-01-05T16:06:00.006+08:00

When there is will, there will be way. Dont need to deny it,this is true.

I am not trying to make this a mess or make it big or anything. I just dont understand. What is actually in your mind? Silence is only making thing worse. Oh,but do you really care? It is hurtful, but maybe to you,that is only a small matter. And maybe right now,you are thinking that i am OVER REACTING. But hey,even if we can erase that incident,is this the way you should treat the one you "love"? See them sad,you still can laugh and joke around? Still can mix around with others like nothing happened?

Why there is no effort that i can see? Is that so difficult for you to mend the situation? Is that your ego problem? Or is that i am not good enough for you to do it? Which one is it? You answer me,please?

I have only one question. Just one. HOW CAN YOU SEE ME LIKE THIS AND DO NOTHING ABOUT IT?

I am not asking anything from you,isnt it? So hard for you just to show some care? To show me that i am needed? Or am i not?

Falling in love isnt always a good thing. Especially when it ends badly,or when you are falling for a wrong person. Must love comes with hate? Must happiness comes with tears? I have been through this once,it was a very hard decision for me to get involved again. You said you wont hurt me. You said it will work. You gave me hope and the courage to fall,but why now everything is different?

Please dont tel me I made the wrong choice again. Make mistake for the first time is forgive-able,but if i repeat the same mistake,i really dont know how to face myself. Why you wanna make someone fall for you,if you have no intention to catch them and when you are not ready to be committed? Old saying,but it is definitely making sense in this situation right now. Why? Why?!

Do you actually know how much you have disappointed me? Do you know how many times I have tried to find excuses to cover all these craps? Dont tel me you dont know that I love you. It is painful and unbearable. I never want to leave,but baby,you didnt even wanna give me a reason to stay.

I know I will not be brave enough to say all these in front of you,even though i wish i could.

Hold me tight or let me go,you can only choose one.

Maybe,maybe I am just not good enough. ;)

#1 ranting

2011-01-04T22:32:00.001+08:00

I want somebody to hug me tight this way and tel me everything is gonna be all right. :'(

Hey,people. It is the second day of school. Hows everyone's day? Tell you what,mine sucks. I mean,really sucks to the max! Be prepared,actually i am gonna explode here.

*skip this post if you cant stand my emo-ness. :)

School sucks. PMS sucks. Everything sucks! Wtf it is only the second day of school for goodness sake but i already kinda half-dead! And i want holidays back. T_T Everyone in my class is doing their revision ALL THE TIME,really. Everyone become so serious out of the sudden. It is really pressurizing. Very very pressurizing,especially when yours truly have been emo-ing all the time lately. Great no?

PMS sucks too because idk why I feel like crying for no reason. The feeling just popped out of no where. I need to talk to someone,i need a hug. Life is hard. And I wanna get out from here :'(

Another thing sucks too. I am not kidding,now for no reason as well i am doubting about my own decision,did i make the correct decision at the first place? Risk,one of the thing I am afraid of. I have taken up the risk,and i dont hope things will work out wrong in half way. I cant bear it. Do you really care?

Forget it. I am going to bed now and sorry for my emo-ness. Just wanna express something somewhere. Love ya everyone. :)

Happy New Year! :D

2011-01-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

Yellow people! Happie 2011! *fireworks!

Time flies,isnt it? So fast its another year ahead of us,hoho. Turning 19 in two more months. :) And school is reopening on two more days. %$&*#$^#!!

Good luck,okay people? And good luck to myself,its STPM year. :'(

Hope everything will be fine and smooth this year. :)

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-25T01:22:00.002+08:00

Merry merry Christmas,my dear readers!

Hope all of you have a blessed and wonderful Christmas and then a happy new year ahead! :DD

Much much love,

from yours truly. :)

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2010-12-19T14:37:00.003+08:00

Hohoho! Earthlings,its almost Christmas time! ♥!

All right, I am kind,you see ;p
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Alohaaaaaa! ;D

2010-12-15T00:29:00.005+08:00

Bonjour ma readers! That is,if i still have any. :'( I am back! Bahaha, still alive lah of course,miss my blog no? ;P Yesterday afternoon I suddenly had the "ohm" to check out my old post,and it brought back my passion for blogging. :D So,now,here I am! And i just figured out a very ~~troublesome~~ way of uploading photos,lol.

Akhem. Lets begin this post with a few of my current-life photos. :D

#1 : Me,sis and the scorching sun.

#2 : The chubby me,fml. Must i have so much fats on my cheeks?

#3 : The most berhemah driver in the world,not.

#4 : Many people are still guessing what is my 19th birthday present. HAHA. Here is a hint. :P

Can you guess what is that already? Its that KEYchain, LOL!

#5 : Do ya'll still remember this fat princess? :D She has just celebrated her 2 years old birthday few days ago. Happy birthday again,my dearest baby!

All right. Now lets rewind to some past events. I know I promised to update these posts for ages already. Aww! I am a bad blogger indeed,soliii!

♥ School Parliament trip to KL

#1 : Hoho,parlimen! It was really a very fruitful trip. We learnt alot! ;D

#2 : Thanks to Ch and Esther for managing this trip and made it so perfect.

#3 : Checking out Art Gallery in KLCC.

#4 : This is epic,HAHAHAHA! I still remember Jane and I cracked our tummies laughing so hard when Chee Yong made a joke right before he snapped our photo.LOL!

#5 : This part was also fun. It was in KLCC, the area at the back,you know. We tried to take some jumping shots and ended up jumping there for dont-know-how-many-times with so many other people around.

They must be thinking that we are from jungle. :P

#6 : Handsome from our school,HAHA. Someone was missing though. ;p

♥ Hang out's outcome. This is what my holiday is all about,productive much.

#1 : Hang out with Raine and Zoe and my new friend Nicc when they were back from KL. :)

#3 : Chuu for Nicc!

#5 : Girls outing with Jo, Isa, Kay-ean, Mickey and Esther. We are gossip girls, dont play play. :P Snapped some photos with my bestie Kayean Su! ;DDD

#6 : Its beat box girls! Puchi Kechi Puchi Kechi,HAHAHA!

#9 : I know she loves me. :)

#10 : She can be a good paparazi. ;p

#11 : 30.03.2010 vs 14.12.2010. LOL. I miss my brown hair!

#12 : She made this. how sweet. :(

♥

Another part about my life here that I wanna add. This is for him-my monster. Someone who will PMS out of sudden(roll eyes!), who will bite me when im watching movie, who will let me bite back when you are driving(HAHAHA). Thanks for everything you have given me all these while, and every silly thing you have done. :) Have fun in Penang. I am missing you already,i hate you,~~not~~!

Hohoho! You see,i managed to update my blog properly jugak in the end. Dont I deserve a big round of applause? :PP HAHA. i guess thats all for now. So,toodles,my readers. I will be back. xoxo! :)

Blessed,I am.

2010-11-26T02:52:00.002+08:00

Yoohoo,people! ;D

First and foremost,thanks a bunch to my dearest daddy and mommy for giving me my first 19th birthday present (even though my bday is still a few months to go) hahaha! i really love the present to the max,kid you not. I never thought they would buy it for me. Who can be so lucky as me to have them as my parents? I am really blessed to have them. :(

Talk a lil bout my present. Hee. It WAS supposed to be a surprise birthday present for me,daddy said he wanted to tie a big ribbon on it and give it to me. But too bad,the secret is revealed when someone called mami and asked her about the present when we were having lunch together. When i was nine,daddy bought me a set of pretty Barbie doll and tied it with a big ribbon and gave it to me. Now for my 19th birthday,he wanna do the same thing also. LOL.

Nevermind,i still love it. My parents are the most lovely and the cutest parents on Earth!>

I love you,daddy and mommy!

Meet BB Jack. :)

2010-11-16T00:08:00.004+08:00

Hello people! :D

I snapped a few picts with BB Jack today,hee. Oh Thank God,he is fine now. In fact,i got a new one actually,hee! Thanks for everyone's concern. Akhem,like lah there are many people worrying about my Jackie,lol!

Cant really get my hands of him. Im serious. Im totally in love with him. <3>

Like,finally,exam and everything is over. School exam,and MUET exam. Teehee! And holiday is approaching. Whoa,i tel you,syiok max. I am gonna enjoy my life! :)

Parliament trip :DD

2010-11-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

My first photo with BB Jack. Credit to @xraine. :)

Jackie,mommy miss you lots,be fine asap,kay?

Btt,akhem! Finally,tomorrow is the almighty parlimen trip of lower six students 2010. After planning for like so long,finally it is here. Hopefully we'll enjoy it to the max tomorrow.Though i know one part of me will be missing,haih. :(

Lets pray for the best and for our safety throughout the whole journey! :D Yes,gotta chao ady,need to be in school at 6 30am tomorrow neh. Catch me in fb for my parlimen trip photos! I pinky promise there will be a lot,a whole lot!

Tumblr!

2010-10-29T21:45:00.003+08:00

Howdy people! :D

Here is the link to my new blog in Tumblr! Follow me!

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Catch me there for lotsa pretty pictures and doodles! ♥

Quote for the day :

Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting.

At times, people need to fight for you.

That i dont want to hear the most

2010-10-19T23:42:00.008+08:00

"It takes a boy you really like to make you smile. And a boy you really love to make you cry. " If so,then i think i must really love you.

Earthlings.

I am currently on my mini break (im half way doing my revision for tomorrow Business's test). I decided to blog for while because im having too much on my mind, just too much that i cannot bear with.

Ily. I gotta admit, ily a lil more than how much i thought it should be. I am surprised. I am really getting used to have you in my days already. I love it when we are spending time together, doing silly stuffs, playing, arguing silly things. And I thought we can be like this always and i really though it will work out right for us.

Maybe you were really right,i shouldnt have asked you that question just now. Thats the thing i dont want to hear the most. It ruined and affected our relationship even before it is officially started. I really dont know how should I react to that,i really dont. I know, to you, maybe you can take it easily and think that "oh,its nothing big". But i really dont and cant feel the same way. im sorry.

Your answer started to make me keep questioning myself "who am i to care bout this?" "What we've done together means what to you now if they can give you something 'better'?" "who am i to you?" "what else can i give you?" It hurts for me to think that way. My tears dropped when you walked out from my room and shut the door. And i cant stop thinking about it even until now.

I wonder,is it the end of everything or is it only a big obstacle for us to go through in order to get a strong relationship? To be frank enough with you, I wna be the closest girl with you,the one whom you can share everything with. But it now seems like everything you have,you already shared it with others. I also wna be your last girlf,the one whom you will be with until you are old. But it now seems like we already have a huge wall between us,how are we supposed to break it down?

I miss the way you laugh when i poke your belly button. I miss the way we cuddle and play. I miss your naughty-ness and your presence. All of these seems to be so far away for me to reach now.

I cried because I care, and I care because ily. I really cant act like as though nothing has happened between us. And idk how is the solution to this prob gonna be. Or does it have no solution? You tell me,you decide. I am not regret for anythign that we have done,but i have got nothing to say anymore.

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?

Congratulation,monster!

2010-10-17T16:07:00.003+08:00

Congratulations,monster! We are proud of you. <3

With his very naughty cousin. I love this pict lah! Aww!

Tomorrow is my final,but im still here,blogging,fb-ing. Great enough,right? Im just so doomed this time. Im sure im gonna eff up my finals results. :(

Wish me luck,tons of luck.

My MUET.

2010-10-13T20:04:00.003+08:00

*OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!*

Im so so nervous right now because tomorrow will be my muet(Malaysian University English Test) for speaking,zomg! My friends who have done their test today are talking bout it in fb,it is making me more nervous!

Candidate XR seriously needs luck. :( Wish me all the best,ppl!